yea.

I guess, my main problem is starting....

Is like commitment, I can't just say darling

so easily, these bad habits 

keep at it and is pleasing me 

teasing me.... Making me really think that 

that's happiness....

Seconds of enjoyment turns to days of crapiness....

I feel this crankiness when my soul wakes up and realizes

all the ruckus and horseplay going on upstairs, my mind....

Live in the moment , they tell me

The past is being camouflaged by the addictions 

and those habits are flying with bright colors towards my future.

....what the f**k?

Reviews

[Solitary Traveler]

These are your own thoughts, and you've already reached the conclusion. Leaving for the moment, if it feels good do it, those are not mantras to live by. They are the mantras people use when they aren't really living. They are breathing, but not really alive. Bathing themselves in sensations, but not in control. When you exercise control, then you are alive.

[Cryingkate]

Love your response

[Perkele.7885]

Your moments of clarity are not nearly as enjoyable as your few moments or minutes of enjoyment, but are better your days of crappiness. You have to make the choice to clean your act or forget the future because there is none for you! Forget the bright colors, focus on black!

[SpeedyHobbit Armstrong]

Taking initiative can be very difficult. Thew first line is simple yet expresses a profound truth when it comes to taking any sort of risk.

[MCS]

Good read
There is something to being in the moment
And at times one just has to stop, shift gears and say f**k you

[Pyyro]

Interesting poem. Thoughts upon the mind can be fucked up, screw your day up as well. Really makes sense

[yuta]

Niiiiice. Really love the ending. Catches you off guard

[Azure Montessa (Blue)]

Ohh, the last line surprised me since I didn't see the swear word coming. I guess using it helps prove your point.

[Baban.A.A]

yea, what the f**k?, but I say what a hell am I meaning to you, I am me not anyone else, so I do what I am born to not what did you born me for, great I liked it.

[MsJewel]

A great reflective poem. I think it is good to look at ourselves and ask wtf from time to time!

:) Julie

[Ees]

Nice! what the f**k? what the f**k am I doing? I have asked myself that so many times in the past few months. Why am I such a disaster, why do I keep doing these same damn things when I know what I want to? That is what I felt while reading this, a reminder of myself. It is very relatable, while still being your personal poem. There also are not any hitched in it, I know because I got so absorbed I only felt the feelings and didn't think too much on the words or structure.
Great job!