Love is just as painful as self hatred

Time has past and everything has changed
I scream and people come
I was happy with it all
But even with all this love im still scared
I'm still frightened
I'm still alone
I can explain everything
But no one will listen
Except the few who understand and willing to be their
Given more and more pain within these recent days
It seems the ones that say the care but don't listen
Are just hurting me more and more
And that the best solution is to just seperate completely
Not to let myself near them again
Not to let myself hurt from their lies
Not to let myself have to always change the person I am
Because when I look in the mirror
I do not see someone I recongize
I do not see someone thats happy
I do not see someone that knows who or what he has become.
What I see is someone that came to near death
What I see is someone that has lost nearly everyone and thing.

Author's Note

Depression, hurt, helpless, fear, ,near death,