that way

what am i doing

somewhere between happiness and regret,in the tears and sweat of the love we used to have.

im not necessarily upset, but sometimes i think that i would rather never know love than to know it so deeply and have it pulled out from under me.

and you smile in my direction, but that smile is more a smile of pity like,

maybe if i would have had the courage to stay you wouldnt seem as pitiful as you do today

i dont want your pity,

although i do want your arms around me

this is wrong

my mind screams at me to forget but my heart wants to contract every time i see you walking my way,

and you shake your head at me,

as if to say i dont think youre worth the walk anymore

maybe if we would have worked out i'd have taken those extra three steps

but since were nothing but some distant memories,

i'll let your memory stay concealed within my bedsheets,

noone has to know that i was trying to come over last week,

don't tell a soul that about all of the happiness i stole away,

i wont cry.

but my eyes will burn with the wanting of tears

my body has run dry

and i dont have the energy to waste on your memory anymore maybe i should have walked away,

i force myself not to look your way

but i see her,

and i think to myslef that she will never be me,

all the times you took me for granted come crashing down on me like,

i know my self worth but i also know howmuch i can take.

you glance over with a wink,

as if to say

dont worry shes taking care of it,

i might haave thought i loved you once but i was curious

and ill never forget it baby what an experience

you could have been the one but it wast that serious

there was smoke in the air before that was me clearing it,

because to you life is a song,

you dont realize that maybe we dont all f**k with drake

but yet you ignore me when i have something remotely important to say

this s**t gets old, i want to erase you from my body

but i cant help that whenever he touches me i see your face

maybe its better off that way...

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[Glen Yumang Manese]

what am i doing
somewhere between happiness and regret,
in the tears and sweat,
of the love we used to have.

im not necessarily upset, but sometimes i think
that i would rather never know love
than to know it so deeply
and have it pulled out from under me.

and you smile in my direction,
but that smile is more a smile of pity,
like maybe, if i would have had the courage
to stay you wouldnt seem as pitiful as you do today
i dont want your pity,
although, i do want your arms around me.

this is wrong my mind screams at me to forget
but my heart wants to contract
every time i see you walking my way,
and you shake your head at me,
as if to say i dont think youre worth the walk anymore

maybe if, we would have worked out
i'd have taken those extra three steps
but since were nothing
but some distant memories,
i'll let your memory stay
concealed within my bed sheets,
no one has to know
that i was trying to come over last week,
don't tell a soul that
about all of the happiness i stole away,
i wont cry.

but my eyes will burn with the wanting of tears
my body has run dry
and i dont have the energy to waste
on your memory anymore

maybe i should have walked away,
i force myself not to look your way
but i see her,
and i think to myself that she will never be me,
all the times you took me for granted
come crashing down on me like,
i know my self worth but i also know how much i can take.

you glance over with a wink, as if to say
dont worry shes taking care of it,
i might have thought i loved you once but i was curious
and ill never forget it baby what an experience
you could have been the one but it wasnt that serious
there was smoke in the air before that was me clearing it,
because to you life is a song,
you dont realize that maybe we dont all f**k with drake
but yet you ignore me when i have something remotely important to say
this s**t gets old, i want to erase you from my body
but i cant help that whenever he touches me i see your face
maybe its better off that way...

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It hits home...yet the ending seems more of a rant with the language...yet I see you wanted to give it all its worth...by doing so...it just purges its way down the lines...I did my best to break it up and have a better feel of the write...in its format...it does not give the reader the impact of your lines...again...I believe that's your intended point...