THE MASTICATED HEART

 

 

I tire of this mastication
it's tearing me apart
the meaningless lies you whisper
when you say I have your heart

You see lies work for a twinkling
they are not designed to last
and before you know it has happened
the time for a lie has passed.

You didn't know I saw you with him
The guy you said was a friend
I saw you there embarrassing him
as you kissed and you
swallowed him in

To me you claim it was innocent
just a hug and kiss between friends
but I find it odd that when I reach for you
I'm stopped almost before I began.

I think you enjoy mauling me
I'm your gum,
that tasteless thing you chew!
I'm that ruminating wad you manducate
just to have something to do.

A total idiot to all your grinding
I let your lies eat me to shame
they munched into my self worth
leaving me a puréed mess in pain

I begged you to release me
I needed you to just emeses my pain
but you locked down,
saying you loved me
a lie, to start the cycle all over again

Well I am done, its over
I've packed my bags,
I'm leaving
we're through
I waited for real commitment
but you just wanted a toy bone to sit and chew.

You look at me, your jaws clenching
you say this is something I will soon regret
but the truth is I've lived regret unending
since the very first day we met.

Now with your mandibles off me
I stretch out, finally free
I can go and find a love unclenching
that will never grind down on me.

 

© 2012 Eddie Phillips

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Rita L. Sev]

This is a great allegory, Eddie - people can indeed "chew us up and spit us out". You took this in an interesting direction, full force.

[Frieda P]

What an interesting concept you've pen'd here Eddie, original, and great rhyme scheme, excellent read!

[Zackery Alan Daley]

I really loved that. Very lyrical, and poignant.

[A. H. Pinley]

Good choice in words. It's hard to pack up and move on when the love is gone.

[Constance Payne]

These words speak to the heart of the matter. We allow so often those we want to love us to control us for their usage. The escape with pride was perfect.

[Eddie Phillips]

I have seen it so many times in my life. I hate to see people "locked down" in something they feel they can't escape from. This poem talks about. I thank you so much for reading it and getting the meaning behind it.

[Marc Marlon Villaflor]

This is great! its relative writing, I can relate to this very real and honest. Keep writing Bro. you did a good job.

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you. I believe that poetry should tell a story. It should have a beginning, confrontation, and end.

[Derek Nall]

Awesome!!! I sadly find myself relating to much with this. Love the gum metaphor. "An idiot to your grinding I let your lies eat me to shame they munched into my self worth
leaving me a puréed mess in pain" Great poem my friend!

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you. This poem disgusts my wife. She hates the thought of being chewed up! LOL

[Eddie Phillips]

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