what is that

hmmmmmmm

I gotta open my eyes

I gotta realize

The limit is the skies

I spiral and do nun

I am an evil guy

Sporadically thinking, talking

Just…………. Never listening

Wake up wake up snap out of it snap out…

Blocked in the head

I feel I’ll drop down dead

And it be a favor

Don’t even know how to get high no more

Closest thing to euphoria is the stress from all the shame

I look at myself ima give me all the blame

Who is there to hate

Probably myself

Staring with my face blank

Trying so hard to complete a thought

Wondering why I couldn’t complete it

Wondering why no one wants to listen

Wondering why I don’t listen

My head hurt my soul hurt

My ego will explode

Ill sit and think my friends are planning a joke on me

Then fall in love with the bottle

Just to forget this pain

I ask myself am I insane

Or am I humane

Am I here

Or am I there

Am I broken

Or am I suffering

Am I still

Or am I tranquil

Lost my touch with love

Felt detached from everyone

Still feel detached from everyone…

What is that throb

A migraine, my evil energy, after effects from the pills, after effects from the bottle

Or just a reason for anger

NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

These feelings are

just pain……….

Just pain……………….

just pain………………………...

just pain………………………………

god admit it…... JUST ADMIT IT

I WASN’T MEANT TO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN.

 

 

Author's Note

rough