I Can't Make You Love Me

For you. My lover who didn't love me back.

Hey.

How have you been?

It's been a while. 

I miss you.

I didn't get to see you before I moved.

You told me that we were a package deal.

You told me that you would miss me.

Did you lie?

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked.

Yeah, yeah, I'm not mad.

Are you mad?

I know that night when I confessed my feelings you looked at it and never responded.

I guess I'm tired, maybe.

Why can't I look at others without seeing you?

I never thought that I would love you.

But look at me now.

I shouldn't feel like grains of sand just because you don't love me back.

I don't deserve this.

I don't.  

It may have taken me half of these words and a year to realize it.

I still can't forget your laugh or how you always smell like pot though. 

I'll always love you.

Goodbye.

H.

Author's Note

No matter how much you love someone or how much you imagine them to be inside your head, they're still them and you're still you. Don't get lost in the way your mind designs someone. You deserve better. Don't listen to anyone that says you're less than worthy of the entire world.