Choke me

For you

I shut my mouth

choking me slowly now

resisting the urge to shout

suppressing each of my words

snuffing out each little breath

a jaded embrace

For you

I close my eyes

my thoughts withheld

just your feeble little lamb

my abilities for you to despise

no prince charming do I see

just an Antichrist

For you

I plug my ears

blocking each and every lie

 mixing truth with fictional fears

wiping the spit from my eye

deaf and arrogant

egotistical a*s

For you

I hide my hands

fist clasped tightly behind my back

fingers pressed upon my pulsating gland

ready for another truce-less attack

choking me slowly now

in peaceful solitude

Reviews

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

I understand this sort of hell intimately~ you bring its raw edges out from the victim who won't be victimized to the vivid forefront~

I was talking to someone about this sort of non relationship nightmare the other day and she had asked why I was accomodating at my own emotional peril~ I told her I wasn't ~I was appeasing~ I said something like this

when you "accomodate" someone it's because you genuinely care about their emotions and mental well being~ when you "appease" someone it's to shut their whiny f***ing mouth the f*** up already~ =)~

these mental vampires abound~ and you gotta have some extremely strong reserves to survive their merciless canines~

powerful with impact~ perfectly described~

[Mark]

This genre has always troubled me mightily, and I have read quite a few of them here and elsewhere. I will not EVER comprehend why a woman stays with an abuser, how she can persuade herself that the physical and emotional pain she endures daily is somehow preferable to the pain of being alone! Here, she purposely stifles her enraged screams, intentially refuses to see, consciously keeps her silent vigil of anguish. It is as though she were willing herself into invisibility, into non-existence. Help me understand this!

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A fantastic realism of fright and terror, a most chilling piece.

[Helpless]

wow, this piece chilling and scary, yet really makes me want to read more with each line i read. great strength and yet much fear through out the whole thing.
very interesting write

[Dream Weaver]

I love the inner rage in this, you take it from
a simmering angst to beyond a boiling bonanza.
Sounds like a great rant...Well done Muse as
always...

[Forest Green]

You've brought the extremes of emotional betrayal into sharp focus...powerful write...

[Kelsie Eileen Stark]

Very powerful, eerie and deathly feel to it.
I felt every emotion and feeling, and thought. Wonderful write~

[nevermindfan1991]

This is very sad, but real. Sometimes, when people are facing a difficult situation, after attempting to get out, they just surrender and endure the pain and anguish.

[Liza]

the surrender and suffocation of one's own breath for another's to grasp attention to feel ease....interesting choice of words.

Wonderful writing...really enjoyed it!