360 Degrees, 365 Days

Disappointed

360 Degrees, 365 Days, to do it all again,
Damn�.

Thank god it�s over. Three hundred and sixty-five days I suffered again, damn.

Picked the same guy at least forty times and man. They all had different, eyes, different heights and features and still. I ended up with the same man in hand and wham. Came out with the same outcome. Alone in the dark, in the park, in the mall, damn. No call, no kiss, no love. Just me alone, a silly dove.

360 Degrees, 365 Days, to do it all again
Damn.

Sparks fly, bottles pop, voices holler, others drop. Confetti flies, more bottles pop. I stand looking up and the peach drops. Look to my side and what do I see. A bigger mini me. The boy that I�ve nurtured for eighteen years and the other side is my girl, with no kids, but no acquaintances are in hand. Too touch, to hold, to carees. God damn. Is this
a sign, cause who ever you celebrate with; is who you will be spending time with. Forever. If forever is 365 days, in a year. Well, that would explain this year. Alone with my girls, no guy to call my own.

360 Degrees, 365 Days, to do it all again
Damn.

This isn�t the life I had in mine for me. Meet guy on Wednesday. Dinner and movies on Friday, Happy hour on Monday, Starbucks on Tuesday. Talk all night until morning, three. To find out he�s horny. Horny and has another, to call, his own. Meet another the following week. This one�s packing but he�s got me beat. Instead, being treated. I�m his treat. Fine mother sucker, but too slick for me. Meet another along the road, after a month or two of hell no�s. Cool, handsome and intelligent guy, but the brother is cheap. Hell no, good-bye, bye.

360 Degrees, 365 Days, to do it all again
Damn�.

Is it my style, my dress, my personality? Is it my breath, my walk, my teeth. It must be something about me, that brings all this negativity. 360 degrees later and the truth I will see. I walk in the park, I talk in the dark, A few fast here and there, a couple praise gods and hell yeahs. A lot of time with just me. A walk with the father, son, and he.

360 Degrees, 365 Days, to do it all again
Damn�.



Another chance to change life and what do I do. Take a chance one more time or two. I remember that guy, I saw in the store staring at me. The one working there you see. Nice looking guy, kinda quiet, dark, tall and slim. Not the same as Jim. Way more conservative, no bling, no gold in his teeth. No rocks, no tops, no big feet or locks. Just a simple style of his own, made me reluctant to say hello. I�ll give him a try or try and see if he sees me. On the next visit to the store, between the aisles we�ll see.

360 Degrees, 365 Days, to do it all again
Damn�..



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Reviews

[Legacy]

Jazypoet,

Self-reflection...

Enjoying the whole motivate myself to bigger and better things- theme of this. You did very well on expressing your start to finish on each one, placing a rhyme to it and giving it song...

Sounds kind of like a rant but better because your 360/365 was brilliant and well thought up.

Thank you for sharing this write, keep writing and oh, maybe capitializing the God References...?

Other than that nothing major pops out as a fix me item. Great work!

Have a 180 degree day,

Legacy

[BLACK PRINCE]

I guess we all have those 360-Degrees-365 Days moments.

When you are convinced this is the one....
All of a sudden you feel wrong and used and foolish and......
it seems the cycle never ends.

But out there, there truly is the ONE for us.