Decision Of life

how I was feeling and how I have been feeling for awhile now.It was confusion but releized I was feeling more and I have to make a decision.

 Life can be so very messed up.

Times I just want to give up.

Times I feel I have no peace.

Wondering if we're meant to be.

I try not to believe words people say.

They always seem to say the same thing.

I get so hurt it tears me apart.

I feel like I'm going to fall apart.

Life in general is hard enough.

It's hard enough to deal with your "stuff".

So I ask you "what's the deal?"

I've grown tired and I've had my fill.

My heart and soul feels so alone.

I feel I need to pick up and go.

My other half sounds just like my ex.

I should of realized this, picked up and left.

I'm to the point I don't give a damn.

It's either you trust and believe in me,

Or maybe it's time you set me be free.

All I want is happiness and peace.

I want to feel love as everyone needs.

I get tired of words being put in my mouth.

It makes me just want an escape to get out.

I know I'm a good woman.

I'd give the shirt off my back.

I would make someone happier,

You know this to be a fact.

I give my all even when it makes me weak.

I never give up so easily

Though I know this isn't meant to be.

I shouldn't feel like the spit under your shoe

Nor should I feel as the mold or mildew.

You weren't this way when we first met.

You showed me how important I was.

You once gave me respect.

I looked up to you now all has changed.

You swore you would never curse me with names

Now I realize how everything has changed.

All I want is a man who is true ,

One who appreciates all I do.

A man who will always love me true

I would bend over backwards.

I would give my all,

I just want and need a real man, thats all.

I can't change the past,

I know this for a fact.

I can only change my future to make me happier.

Hopefully next time it will last.

 

     

  

   

 

 

  

  

  

          

                   

          

 

 

 

 

 

 

                   

                 

                   

Reviews

[Amanda]

so eloquently put, Karen...this write is what you think and feel about things that may or may not have been within your control. the thing that is within your control is how you decide to live your life now without the man that held you back and what he did to you. you have to believe in yourself and believe that you will get what you want and deserve in life. i speak from experience, as i too, have been there, done that.

though i am still going through the transition of going from one state of being to another, i have learned that anything worth having is worth working for. i have the love of my family and my close friends and the support to do what i have to do to get where i want to be in this life. even though i don't have the love of someone that is better than what i had, i won't give up on the hope that some day maybe i will find it.

other than some spelling errors, this is a very good write....i pray that you will find what it is you are looking for.

you go, girl!

Always,

Amanda

[jen -- JG]

Putting aside spelling mistakes etc and just reading the words and the message you give here, I can honestly say "Well Done Karen. You have grown."

You have loved and trusted, been used and abused, felt lonely, unloved and unwanted.

Now you stand tall. You know that you are the only one who can alter your life for the better. You know the past cannot be changed and look forward to a lasting love.

Knowledge is power Karen, and here you have the power to make a new life for you.

Well done

Jen

[Fabian G. Franklin]

Do you mean to say "confusion" and tears insted of "tares" and fail insread of "fell"? I am confused myself.

[Belinda Rice]

very beautiful and emotional great poem here...you really took the great time to show emotion and how things in life make you feel.We all in life get confused and dont know what to do and your right to never lose faith cause faith is what will bring all the glory and love into your life and God will glorify you like to make in at peace and he heres your cry and know when you need a helping hand....god bless you and ty for sharing a great work of art on here hope to seee more/

[Jaffa Forbes]

An interesting emotive piece of writing and well written.
jaffa

[Fran Marie]

A great piece so well expressedf and well penned~Fran Marie

[Sydelle Houston]

Don't let any one, especially someone you love, make you feel anything other than loved.

I think your poem is beautiful, but you know I'm a stickler for typos which can take away from your message.

'Sarrow' is 'sorrow,' confused has only one 's,' the word 'threw' should be 'through,' tares = tears; "I've had my feel" -- you mean fill; "sometimes I fell" you mean 'fail,' and angles = angels.

[Ray Hamilton]

Great write
A true love would never make you feel stupid
I could never understand a man that does this, what do they gain
Perhaps if they would stop for a minute and think>>>>>>>>>>> they would
Understand that it's them that are acting stupid!!
Wonderful write Ray { Not a Poet }

[Janice Ann]

Well put darlin! I am sure all of us has felt this way in one or more areas of our lives...and you are right we do sometimes fail to see the angels above us but they always find a way to make their presence known! Great write!

Love lots!
Janice ann