Spill

 

 

I poured my heart into one long, ambient sigh,

letting it flow down into its final release.

It lasted longer than all of the years gone by,

folding itself among the night-black verdigris.

 

The density lingered in the back of your eyes.

I agonized, hoping you would ask me to stay.

I lost my soul, bone-weary, and drowned in my cries

as you said, "I don’t know what you want me to say."

 

Midnight cascaded around me and cloaked the floor,

and I gathered the remnants of nothing and less

and split into fragments of yes-no-nevermore,

weaving the sadness into the hem of my dress.

 

I plucked your rib from my side and buried it deep

like a waning crescent that tumbled from the sky

so that when you fade into darkness I will keep

a small sliver of light to remember you by.

 

When the days are darker than I think I can stand

and my darker self is empty of strength and will,

I hold the memories within withering hand

then I open my fingers and I let them spill.

 

 

Author's Note

Reviews

[Dean]

I too, have uttered sighs like that...and utter them still.

[Dispersus]

a collection of marrow...how long is too long to carry the torch that burns us so?...sadly, I know the answer to my query and in Love's perfect glow a healing can begin...but first, one must release...one must...spill

quatrains of truth...thank you

Peace

[lee von cleef]

and spill they do. weeping from the willows dew. Three and four clover leaf honey. words linger on the misty hill, I see now covered in snakes of snow, wind sniping tin above my head. But a spot of glow, your light worms a whisper . Quiet the whistling. shut out the cold . let me hear your whisper, think your whisper ,Smell your whisper, Oh please take me,
From this concrete carousel .

[captain]

amazing! you have captured so much with so many emotions so beautifully. I am speechless.

[TL Boehm]

oh this is drenched in emotion - each word an achingly beautiful sad moment. A true lamentation that wrings tears from the heart. Just lovely.

[Healing Star]

this is very beautiful; you capture the difficulties of loss, release and letting go so eloquently.

[Ken Simm.]

This is lace, both with its beauty and its strength. As you talk about losing you uplift. Not an easy thing to do but to do it with such grace.

[David Scott]

Linda Marie,

You would not have had to tell me your heart was poured out into this write. It was clear to see.
I feel like you lost a true soul mate here. The fourth stanza tells me you were flesh of his flesh, bone of his bone. You were one...
How do you let go of someone who is one with you? How can the sun find you when your own soul has walked away in the body of your truest love and hidden in the darkness of betrayal?

I wish I did not understand this as well as I do because I have known this pain from both sides. I would rather be ignorant of the knowledge. I am not, and my heart goes out to the soul written into this poem.

The poetry was vividly painful in a controlled wailing of finding a way to let go...
In the end, the last line was all you could write. All you can do is let go now and let your love return to you as it will and as it must. Not in the same person who took it before, but like new growth in Spring finding life from all of Creation and new birth in accepting the gifts all around from your Creator. Light, water, wind and Earth, will be the womb of your rebirthing... from the very soul of God.

Be well Linda.

Great poem!

[Linda Marie Van Tassell]

David,

Thank you so much for taking the time to write such a heartfelt, insightful, and beautiful review. The wounds of such a love never seem to fade for me, and it lives and breathes in my skin everyday. It's truly a double-edged sword that cuts within and without.

Once again, I thank you.

[David Scott]

I honestly understand. I also sympathize. Hang in there precious soul!

[Sami Khalil]

You write splendidly and convey touchingly...Bravo..............

[Lucien Maier]

Good emotion! nice write it flows well and never lost me.