S'posed to be Figured?

I wrote this on 9-3-2012

I'm a f***ing mess

I'm all alone in life

No one understands me

I don't understand myself

 

My focus is to escape

There's too much pain,

Regret and confusion

It all weighs me down

 

Suffocating

Is it not hopeless?

Can't get out of here,

I need a Savior

 

He has saved me right?

Why do I feel so empty

Am I pushing Him away?

Is that what I do?

 

Help

I can't figure everything out.

If it's s'posed to be figured.