Scouts Honor

Scouts Honor

A Poem by .Lost Soul.
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Not what you think it's about.

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Three fingers up

Pinky and thumb down

In the air

To down my throat

Fat filled food

Approaches my mouth

And falls to the bowl

I taste it still on my breath

The food that couldn't stay down

In fear of the numbers

It might add to the scale


As the scale number subtracts

I get happy

I feel like I have accomplished something

Accomplished something great

But all I'm doing is hurting myself

Without the scars

To fit the image

Of beautiful

So I can smile again

So I can be loved again

So I can love myself again


As I promise

To the pledge

I cry as I purge

In the horror of what I'm doing

But knowing nothing

Will be different

If I don't do it

As I feel helpless

And unloved

Then I position my head

Back in the bowl

And stand to scouts honor

© 2012 .Lost Soul.


Author's Note

.Lost Soul.
Sorry if this was too graphic

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Sometimes Grapic is good, never be sorry for graphic content because allot of times its the only way to get a persons attention. The Old Binge and purge. I had the issue once, Its a horrible feeling to be looking in the mirror and try to live up to an expectation that is unreasonable. I got down to 90 lbs before I realized it.

The Truth is G-D Created everyone different for a reason. He wanted to show us that through Diversity, you can achieve Greatness. Its this Diversity and the ability to love ones-self is the true meaning of the word beautiful. Having to see yourself in the negative all the time, always brings negative results, Screw the Scouts honor and live your life for you, Then Let the Scouts kill themselves over the bowl.

Excellent write, and an awesome deep message of inner struggle.

Posted 11 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.




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Umm, yea, that was awesome. The first line really made me think, wow, that's nasty. The fact you made me truly feel disgusted is very respectable. Graphic was perfect, and usually is, to me anyways, I love descriptive-creative writing. Thanks a lot for sharing, it was really unique!

Posted 11 Years Ago


.Lost Soul.

11 Years Ago

Okay, so you liked how it was gross? lol
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Wow. This was really very good! And graphic can be a good thing. It really grasps the readers attention and keeps them till the end! Great job! :)

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sometimes Grapic is good, never be sorry for graphic content because allot of times its the only way to get a persons attention. The Old Binge and purge. I had the issue once, Its a horrible feeling to be looking in the mirror and try to live up to an expectation that is unreasonable. I got down to 90 lbs before I realized it.

The Truth is G-D Created everyone different for a reason. He wanted to show us that through Diversity, you can achieve Greatness. Its this Diversity and the ability to love ones-self is the true meaning of the word beautiful. Having to see yourself in the negative all the time, always brings negative results, Screw the Scouts honor and live your life for you, Then Let the Scouts kill themselves over the bowl.

Excellent write, and an awesome deep message of inner struggle.

Posted 11 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.


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Added on December 4, 2012
Last Updated on December 18, 2012
Tags: Bulimia, Eating Disorders, Body Image Issues

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.Lost Soul.

Central Maine, ME



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