A Letter Before I Deart

A Letter Before I Depart

Sad... ever feel so  sad that it’s no longer sadness. You just want to know where the trap door is. Any type of escape to avoid reality and introduce some type of distraction. This sadness turns into depression, in which I no longer have expression and no longer know which direction to go. Feels like my screams for help somehow get lost in translation, like the signal was lost and therefore cannot broadcasted. I understand why Billie said listen before I go. However, no one ever listens. They may hear but not listen. You could be yelling at the top of your lungs like you’re at the top of a roller coaster but yet somehow they still don’t know as if their eyes and ears were taped wide shut. Being the main character in your life comes with its challenges. Every main character needs a supporting role. That’s the thing about being the main character; since you’re the lead they expect you to have it altogether. They never sit back and ask they just look through the glass of an illusion. Behind my smile it’s tears and fears that could reach all the way to the atmosphere. Feels like there’s always a traffic jam,detour, under construction, or just plain old fate that makes me unable to reach my destination. No matter which way my gps tries to reroute me I seem to end up at the same location. Then I end up with salty tears slowly pouring down my cheeks. Tears sting and burn just like acid eating me from the inside and slowly transpiring. I’m driving this vehicle and yet I don’t know how cause there’s no longer gas in the tank. Like I’m just a zombie just endlessly wondering. Maybe the best thing to do is to drive off into an abyss therefore it’s no return. This may be the solution. No medication can cure this. This may be the best prescription. No side effects just the end result.

Reviews

[Aidan Singletary]

I don't usually enjoy prose poetry as a stand-alone piece. While you haven't convinced me to pursue it, I very much enjoyed this piece. Thank you for sharing it!

I especially liked the line in which you said, "...eyes and ears taped wide shut." This was a jarring, paradoxical metaphor that surprised me; A very good piece of writing. (Did you take your inspiration from a Stanley Kubrick film?)

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the feedback I appreciate it. Happy you enjoyed reading it. No I did not get my inspiration from a Stanley Kubrick film by the way

[Aidan Singletary]

Ok, cool. I thought the title sounded similar to the title of Eyes Wide Shut.

[William Michael Reeves]

This is pretty profound. And even without poetic structure the rhyme and cadence of your writing is easily found. And I really liked the sound of 'no matter how GPS reroutes me, I end up in the same location'. You have good analogy and metaphor in this one. Just please, in all those tears, don't get drowned!

billigami

[NelliKong]

Thank you so much for this comment William I appreciate it. I like to find different figures of speech to describe how I may feel in a given moment.

[Coyote Poetry]

Life is a wild journey. Two brothers committed suicide in the late eighties. Taught me. I was in the wrong places.
"Behind my smile it’s tears and fears that could reach all the way to the atmosphere. Feels like there’s always a traffic jam, detour, under construction, or just plain old fate that makes me unable to reach my destination. No matter which way my gps tries to reroute me I seem to end up at the same location."
I do understand the above lines. I was lucky. I found worthwhile people to live for. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote