Apologies

It's my last line of defense,
my barbed wire,
my electric fence,
and I'm sorry that I hurt you,
but I guess you got too close.

I'm so afraid of being wounded
that I hurt myself ahead of time.
I've taken all the joy from life.
I don't know how to turn back now.

And time is slowly leaving me.

I couldn't truly like you
until I found a way to hate you.
Not until I found a reason
to never have to love you.
And I guess I should have told you,
but in truth I was afraid to,
because then you'd know my weakness,
that I'm terrified of love.

And love is slowly leaving me.

Someday I'll just be bitter
and I can feel it happening.
I hate what's coming over me,
I feel that for eternity
I'll see everything with apathy,
and that's not who I want to be.
But it's the life I chose, it seems,
when I dismissed all love.

And regret is slowly finding me.

Reviews

[Lorry]

Poignant and introspective words, beautifully written. Has a softness to it that I can almost hear the sighs between verses. It speaks so softly yet the words pack a punch. Maybe if we were all so open there would be far fewer around to judge. Thank you for sharing, really enjoyed this.

[parker]

Thank you for your feedback, I appreciate it

[M]

I like this very much! so raw!

[parker]

Thank you!