Numb

I'm not afraid of pain, 

I know it far too well. 

I'm daily tortured by the secrets 

I can never tell. 

I daily suffer the decay 

Of all my naive dreams, 

My hopes and wishes soon found out 

Life isn't what it seems. 

I've been hurt too many times, now 

There is blood where I have lain. 

I feel it lurking in my soul, 

I'm not afraid of pain. 

I'm not afraid of loss, 

I'm numb to its cold hand. 

I've known the loss of Childhood, 

The wonder of that land.

 Life stole away the greatest soul 

My heart has ever known, 

Alas, all heroes are just men, 

As life has clearly shown. 

My mislaid marvels fall as tears 

To lend my face a plastic gloss, 

I'm too immune to cross its path, 

I'm not afraid of loss. 

I can't have a broken heart, 

You can't break what isn't there. 

My heart's been worn away to naught 

By hurt and sorrow and despair. 

Too many loves never returned, 

Too many letters never read, 

I can't believe that I am hurt 

By all the words I never said. 

So now I'm numb and now I'm cold, 

Protected from the start. 

If I never leave it open, 

I can't have a broken heart. 

I'm not afraid of death, 

I'm dying every day. 

With every breath and every tear 

My lifetime wastes away. 

I died when all my dreams decayed, 

And when my hero's face was shown. 

I died when love no longer saw 

That I was broken and alone. 

My life is slowly winding down, 

It trickles out with every breath. 

It's coming but I welcome it, 

I'm not afraid of death.