i'm too young

eh birthday soon....i still feel like i haven't grown up 1 bit. so i decided to write about it.

I’m too young

This world is too old.

Comprehension of ascension

Simply evades my linear thoughts.

By ascension I mean growing up

To the higher states of physicality and mentality.

But with no understanding of life itself….

How can I learn from the lessons it teaches me.

I can’t sit the exam without the paper

Without the knowledge

Without the know how.

Can’t recognize a mistake because I didn’t even know it was there.

I’m too young….

It’s a distressing revelation.

20 in 15 days….

Yet I still don’t feel like a man.

Reviews

[Mark]

Dude, I'm over 50 and still don't feel grownup ROFL Not sure I really ever want to.

Great read, thanks for sharing.

[nigrum homonculus]

haha! i hope i'm like that in the future. hell i worry about it so much i don't think of the present. thanks for that review man.

[SHEEMA HUQ]

i just love the way poetry flows from your pshyche, the way you use words is commendable...20 in my eyes is young indeed, no matter how you feel, it's a special time

[nigrum homonculus]

thank you sheema. is it? i know a lot of people tell me its a time of change. maybe that's special?

[SHEEMA HUQ]

maybe is the operative...anytime of teh life span can be but there is a certain youth specific time that i reckon would be epic material to cover, years from now...how are you? and when are you coming over to review? I'm always keen on different feedback which doesn't need to be asap....

[nigrum homonculus]

you do have a really good point there. me? just buried my head in a text book for the last 4 days trying to complete my course lol. how about you? and very soon. i had a quick look at your poems that avoided the shredder before i went out the other day. sorry i didn't post a review on it.

[bob, small b. aka invs]

i have a 20-something year old friend who told me she believes life is an open book test. we already have all the answers inside of us. we only have to listen. so don't sweat the exam. that's assuming she's right. me? i'm over 60 and i'm coming to the conclusion that true wisdom is discovering how little we can be certain of. so, if i'm right you don't have to sweat the answers either. just relax and enjoy life. growing up happens whether we're ready for it or not.

[nigrum homonculus]

that is the kind of assurance i need. them words will definitely stick with me for years to come. thank you so much invs for that review.

[sierrasparks91]

Great Poem

[nigrum homonculus]

thanks seirra!

[sierrasparks91]

your welcome

[eglantine]

hmm when was your birthday? I only ask because I also wrote a poem bout my upcoming birthday... lol It's called Bells if ya wanna read it. Yours is much more questioning than mine though.

I like "I can't sit the exam without the paper"

What knowledge are you talking about? What do you want to know of life? Compared to us, the world is very old, but compared to the universe, earth is so young...

[nigrum homonculus]

it was on the 28th of august. i'll defo check that out.

ah a lot of things. i'm but act 12, experienced not nearly enough as i should. not saying i'm sheltered or anything but everyone around me acts a hell of a lot older than i do, also i look mad young for my age. most people think i'm 16 or something and because i'm told that a lot i kinda get into that mind state aswell. there's more but i don't want to bore you with an essay. thanks for the review!

[eglantine]

haha, not a bore at all. Mine was the 20th and I also look quite young for my age and was also extremely sheltered as a child. glad to have met ya! (btw, the creative adult is the child who survived ;) )

[Baby Ricochet]

HOLY CRAP!!!!!20!!!! You can't have teenaged sex anymore. I'd make a crack about having sex with teenagers but that's sure to piss somebody off so I'll resist the temptation. Good poem man.

[nigrum homonculus]

LOOOL! oh come on i'm not losing out on that much. haha! oh damn it'd be a second hookers and crack! thanks again for the review man.

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

This is a wonderful, and quite vulnerable piece...I love that vulnerability in it.
So many thoughts, and quotes, and ponderings that this piece brings up in me!

"Can’t recognize a mistake because I didn’t even know it was there."
This line makes me think of what I often tell my kids,
"It's not what I don't know that scares me, it's what I don't know that I don't know."

Life is like a school, we just all hope we learn what we are supposed to, master it hopefully and when the big test comes we pass. You are not alone in your feelings...some might not admit it...but, I think we all often wonder what it is all about. Love your work.

[SHEEMA HUQ]

40 year old females don't always feel like mature grown ups ought to - so take comfort in my words!

[nigrum homonculus]

i will sheema. thank you for that. :)