As I lay here and try to find the words, I realize there's no easy way to explain it. Why cant I under stand these feelings deep inside? How did I get so cold? How did I get so lonely? I need someone to really be there for me. Because when I feel like this I just want to scream, I'm in so much pain. I wanna scream. I wanna cut. I wanna see the blood. I wanna feel the rush. As i read these words I'm starting to get it. I understand that it's not always my fault.Why did i think that? How could i be so wrong? I'm thinking now maybe I was wrong all along. Because i felt like if i didn't scream. If i didn't cut there would be no way for me to express my hurt. Now when i play this song I look back and see the old me. She's standing there with blood running everywhere. And as I see her I am so happy that I'm not her any more.