Why it's not me

dis is fo sum1 jus so u no

I sit here in this chair staring out into the distance

Thinking will my day ever come, will it ever come around

I can tell your feeling's for that person is grand

Your heart belongs to them and I understand...why its not me

Its cool I ain't gonna trip ain't no reason to

I still luv you I still am falling for you

Yet your heart is with him as his heart is with you

I respect that and I understand....why its not me

I do wish at times that it was me, but it ain't always like that

Things can't always go your way when you really want them to

He is a good man for you a man that can ease your pain

Your pain from past lovers that have hurt your heart

I just happened to help you out and show you that there is

That there is someone still out there that still cares

And that someone is me, but he has you now and shows you

He shows you all the care and love that I can and wish I could show

Yet he got you now and I respect that and I understand....why its not me

I know your feeling's for one another are going to grow

And I will still be there with you, but not "with" you

I do still go to bed thinking of you, dreaming of you

I still go to school wondering about you, worrying about you

And I know and hope I can at least have that love from you some day

And if not yes I will be hurt, but its understandable....why its not me

He will treat you like your meant to be treated

As I would like to of done for you

But right now I need to stay there and be happy

Be happy that someone is making you happy

I'll still have those feeling's for you

I'll still want to be with you

Not just for sex

Not just so I won't be alone any more

But to share that love with you that I've always wanted to share with you

Each and every day I sit and talk to you making myself feel so happy

Yet knowing that someone has you and not me

Which I respect that and I understand....why its not me

But I do when I do ask when it will be me?

We will both be unsure because we can't predict it

But I respect that and I understand.................

WHY ITS NOT ME