Hell In Heaven

Love and heartbreak

If i lose a thought of her in nothingness, 

believe me I have just survived the moment of emptiness

I have just survived a moment of silent death

It feels like a dream that i have her in my arms tearful

just to tell me how happy we were in those sad moments of our life

where nothingness was just a word to tell me her presence meant everything

during those moments, her hands were holding mine making everything easy

and it surely did resemble the heaven within our lives

But, when she was gone, away from my sight, as if i am blind to see anything

Her absence is the only thought that I find her in my sane world

Her warm touch and soft kisses are all that i long which will never be fulfilled anymore

The depth of her presence is so difficult to reckon when her existence at present is in an urn

I am sorry to survive but i just cannot leave her precious gift alone

It feels like yesterday when she said she has intolerable pain in her heart

I lay beside her in agony through all those moments of struggle

I cannot share her suffer, i cannot cure her pain and surely i cannot take it away from her

I have never been so helpless with her hands on mine near the end of her life

She, her presence, her gift and those days I lived my life in heaven as if in hell

and i know, heaven is the only place where she existed

After her departure, all those time afterwards,

If I lose a thought of her in nothingness

Believe me I have just survived the moment of emptiness

I have just survived a moment of silent death