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about the ones who are supposed to be family, but can't understand the word

I'm sitting here

Surrounded 

By the ones I've known forever

The ones who are supposed to be my family

So why,

Despite the many people all around me

Why do I feel so far away

All the way on the outside?

I'm the one who gets the looks

The glares

And stares of such disappointment

When all I'm doing

Is being me? 

I don't understand what else you want

Or why this, me, isn't good enough for you

Why do you pack such malice 

In one look reserved for me? 

It hurts

But I'm not sorry

It's my events you miss

Trading a few hours with me

A chance to be included in my life

For a week away

Where you won't have to see or hear me

Why can I never get it right? 

"Right" for you is foreign for me

Everything I do, say, wear

Isn't good enough for you

You don't understand

That I'm not who you think I am

And will never be who you want

But explain why this

Isn't good enough

When it's all I have? 

Reviews

[Rob L]

you dance with yourself, and your family cannot see and share - it's all their loss, though you feel it yourself as well

[Nicole Schuster]

Exactly. Thanks for the review :)

[ANTO]

I can understand this sense of 'detachment' personally. I often felt I must have been adopted because I didnt seem to belong sometimes. I was a bit of an introvert and the rest of the family were extroverts so I guess i didnt fit in really but when we see the perfect family played out time and time again (especially at holidays) on TV and in movies we kind of get to feeling we are missing out when the actuality of it is that we are just as dysfunctional as every other family.
Well expressed writings - deeply personal feelings put down here.

[Nicole Schuster]

I'm glad you can relate - that's kind of exactly what I feel too. Thanks for the review :)

[Chris]

Is it them or is it our self... WE aren't the ones good enough, smart enough, "pretty" enough, enough of whatever WE feel we lack - because we so dearly want to be the puzzle piece that universally "fits" every "missing"... lots of thoughts here for the unwary...

[WittyWonka]

If we aren't enough for someone they are not deserving of us. I really like the title too