Counting Calories

a period of time when I nearly started starving myself

 

200 for breakfast

No more

Maybe less

Lunch time comes

Maybe I’ll eat an apple

Or maybe I’ll skip

My stomach argues

But I ignore it.

 

Dinner comes

I’m starved

But I only eat half

Aren’t you hungry?

They ask me

I shake my head

No.

I lied.

 

So consumed

With my idea of perfection

For weeks

I stayed on

The ridiculous diet

But then I realized

I had to stop

Counting calories.

Author's Note

review please

Reviews

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Well this is sad :/
I guess society comes into this too.. I was reading Hugo's conversation once with Amanda and he said if no one "looks" like Marilyn Monroe, she or he is not perfect... Well something like that at least..
And I hope you realize you don't need to starve yourself to look thin, to look skinny, to look pretty :)
Everyone is different in their own way I promise, and now look in the mirror... Tell me what YOU see, and then I'll tell you what I see. Our opinions (I guess you oculd call it) would be pretty different, and that's totally fine! Same goes with the definition of "perfect" or "beautiful". You probably won't think that your pretty, but we do. You probably think your a really bad poet, ha your totally wrong through my eyes.

Lol I hope I made sense... I never make sense e_e

[C.C. Marx]

I knew in my heart starving myself was not the answer. It took mea little while to get the message though. I never needed to do that to myself, I wasn't fat at the time, it was more out of controlling something when everything else went wrong. Are there times when I consider doing it again, of course, but I know I'm strong not to go down that road again. It means so much to know that people care enough not only to review my work, but to give me hope for the future. Thank you for making my day :)
-C.C.

[Soul Fire]

Wow, very powerful Great work! Perfection is not your size, weight or how much you eat. It's who you are on the inside that makes you truly beautiful. society should stop and look around and see what they're doing to not only young girls but to boys, guys and men too. I know some men who starve themselves or have. I, myself attempted this, and stopped consuming as much as I would normally, during a difficult depression, but I got through it, and started a regular eating habit to help me. I stopped before it became a habit or addiction. I'm glad to hear that you have gone through and survived this. for that, I applaud you.

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks Raya, it means a lot to know someone else has gone through the same thing and never let it get the better on them.......thank you for the review :)

[Soul Fire]

You are welcome :D

[A. V. Madison]

I've been here, but not by choice. When we were homeless, food had to be rationed. I barely ate 600 calories a day. Even when we got on our feet, I still didn't eat. I was used to starving myself to keep food for my little sister. I know how you feel. Starvation is a twisted, dark road. But this poem is a great interpretation of it. 100/100.

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks Maddie, not only for the review, but for sharing your story as well :)

[Alexa Tasch]

A lot of people are so obsessed with the idea of perfection that they can't see that they are hurting themselves. Remember, you are always perfect!! I live how you turned something very real to you into a well written poem. Nice job!

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks Alexa it means a lot! The perfection I strived for was not worth it in the end at the time I didn't realize how sick it could've gotten me thanks for the reviee

[Alexa Tasch]

you're welcome!

[Faffy]

i guess im not the only one who stay up all hours of the night clicking that refresh button over and over =P but i cant tell you how many times i have heard this or though this its beautifully illustrated and wonderfully and clearly conveyed, every poet can manipulate language it takes a real writer to use it, and you my friend are a real writer

-Roshan

[C.C. Marx]

Why thank you its a hard thing for people to admit but many girls can understand how hard it is not to be obsessed with weight thanks for the review

[Tarry Franck]

I believe you captured what a lot of women deal with on a daily basis. Bravo! Bravo! Thanks for putting it in pen. It's sad but true. I'm glad you stopped too. Life is too short to worry over such things as this.

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks tarry and I'm glad too because it wasn't worth the pain it caused me it was becoming an issue that I needed to fix

[Tarry Franck]

I'm very proud of you

[C.C. Marx]

Thank you, i means a lot to know that :)

[Tarry Franck]

{{{HUGS}}}

[C.C. Marx]

Haha and a hug for you too :)

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you :)

[C.C. Marx]

You are very welcome my friend, thank you again for stopping by :)

[KAOlmsted]

It's a sad commentary on how a lot of teenage girls (and women) live their lives due to some arbitrary number on the scale that, in their mind, states they are desirable...which is rubbish. I'm glad you stopped.

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks and I agree with u its sad and totally not worth it

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Ohmygosh.... I absolutely love this! I've done this before.. And i can totally relate... and just, wow, you did a beautiful job of expressing this feeling. I love this... Definitely going in my favorites... Thanks so much for sharing!

[C.C. Marx]

Aww thx Amanda! I think all girls can relate to doing this at least once I sucks but we all have this silly idea of perfect...thanks again for the review!! :)

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Yeah, I know, it's a girl thing, guys don't seem to understand :/ and it's absolutely no problem(:

[Jordan's Back]

Your darn right us guys dont understand, Most girls that complain about their weight are like healthy or skiny. Its the BMI thats more important then the pounds. You can be a little over weight as long as your bmi dont exceed 21 :P but hey all in all a good poem it was very expressive.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

It's a girl thing, no guys seem to get it, at all.. It's just, how our minds work I guess. We can never be content with ourselves, every time we get closer to perfect we just strive some more, hoping that it will bring us even closer.. That's what most girls spend their whole lives doing... Striving for perfection.

[Jordan's Back]

More Like Starving for perfection and who determines exactly what perfection is, Pop Culture. Did you know that the weight scale 30 years ago was an average or 15 to 20 lbs higher for everybody then it is now? hell even back in the sixty it was almost thirty! Its society that makes you think your not perfect but God said you were Perfectly created in His on image and Likeness and if he wanted us made all the same size I would be walkin around with Tyra banks butt :P Just sayen

[C.C. Marx]

Sometimes its hard to happy with what you've got.....there was a time when I was a few more pounds than I was happy with an my older started calling me fat. It never stopped so eventually I started believeing it. Thank you poem for reviwlewing means a lot to me

[Jason]

Wow, great poem.

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks I'm glad you took the time to review it :)

[Jason]

No problem :)

[C.C. Marx]

well I always say a review for a review so feel free to request anything you want reviewed...I owe you one :)

[Jason]

Feel free to read anything if you like. :)

[C.C. Marx]

Ok I will do that in uno momento

[Jason]

Alright, thank you :)

[C.C. Marx]

Your very welcome :)

[Lover Of Words]

This a good poem surprising subject but great anyways

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks! Well I figured inspiration can come from anywhere and well I remember this time in my life and I figured why not?