dear mommy

dear mom,

do you remember when we used to go on picnics? with the birds singing above our heads? and the little swings just inside the park where you pushed me as a little girl to where i felt like i was flying. can we go back to that? with you tucking me into bed and carrying in half asleep on your shoulder? i don't like it now when all you do is cry yourself to sleep, and daddy slowly fading. i don't like hiding inside my room from this man that you married. i wish that when you looked at me you didn't see a disappointment, but your little girl crying out for help. i wish that i didn't have to hide the way i feel from you, i hate that i've done it so long trying to protect you from anymore stress that i can't show emotion when i'm around you. i hate the forced laughs, and the streaks of tears that cover my face in the morning. i wish you heard my sobs above your computer as you play on facebook. i wish you could see how much i miss the you that was there when my sister was here. i wish that you didn't look at me and smile. i would give my right arm just to see you smile at me genuinely. do you remember when we went out camping in florida? we all where able to forget about him, and the past five years. we where able to overlook the hell we've been living in for just a couple days. but it seems that now as the days and weeks and months progress, you haven't spoken to me without screaming in anger, and i can't help but wonder why? don't you love your little girl.you keep hearing me sing my vocals and you say that it is of the devil, and that i shouldn't sing things like that. i know oyu didn't see that it was what i was singing what i felt, and that it was something from me. if you saw my poems and stories, what would you say then? would you make me stop? would you finally see how much i'm hurting. would you finally look at me in something other than hate. would you see that well,........i miss you mommy

Reviews

[Whispering Pines]

Very emotion-filled and attention grabbing. Good job.

[marie]

Thank you:)

[Ethale Captor]

A bond that we both miss.

[marie]

And one we will never get back

[Ethale Captor]

I believe that is what hurts the most about it.

[marie]

Yeah..... But hey at least it's over with on the losing part right?

[Heather]

this is such a beautiful piece
there is no criticizing words to say
your mom is lucky to have a daughter like you

[marie]

Thanks:)