A (Belated) Final Good-bye To A (Once?) Friend

A sort of part 2 to "An Apology to My Angel" and "Letting Go".

In the Beginning...

You were just the boy in the green trunks

I never thought you'd become anything much

I thought you'd be like the others,

Making it end with feelings I had to smother

Later On...

Laying side-by-side,

Learning to fly,

We learn each others' names

My heartbeat difficult to tame.

As Days Passed...

You learned about me,

I never learned about you

It surprised me that I never could see...

That you wanted me too

Each Day...

We met at the same spot

We laughed and we talked,

Hugging each other closely,

Holding on longer and longer

Until...

One night...

The hug good-bye no longer felt shy

My heart took over

And moved us forward

The hug became a kiss good-bye

Now...

Everything has crashed and burned

There are no more good-bye hugs

No more meetings or talks

I look at us and see us at a point of no return

And it is once again...my fault

Now... 

I look at you and remember your sweet perfection

No demand for anything sexual

You were all warm, relaxing, sweetness

Your only desire was for affection kept secret

Now...

You look at me and keep walking

I've given up my efforts at amends

Your actions do enough talking

I wish this hatred would end

Now...

I've been missing the us from before

I don't want to feel this wall between us anymore

I wish I could talk to you again

Like we did back then

But...I don't deserve that

I destroyed us.  I'm that scared and stupid.  I'm that weak... My point is: I never got to say my last good-bye so... this is my belated, final good-bye.

Reviews

[Inject Positivity]

This is painful and sad, I can tell you I understand what it feels to be in that situation... I'm sorry for whatever you have gone through Tessa, all I wish you to forgive yourself for all the mistakes... You have constructed the poem in touching way, just purely touching and feel full... I hope he sees this, I really hope so Tessa my sweet frnd...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[Tessa Melendez]

I gave him the handwritten version and presently we are friends. I mean - I had to get a friend to give the poem to him a long time ago and after that we talked it over and, as I said, we are friends now. It's like it never happened. Thank you for your sweet reviews, Dhiman.

[Insight "MH"]

It is hard to have someone close but not close enough, sometimes when someone's feelings misunderstood then unmeasurable actions come to the surface. Well written!

[Tessa Melendez]

He was a friend that became more and then I made a mistake and messed it all up. Thank you for your review.

[Insight "MH"]

You are welcome.

[alifeacoustic]

Sorrow at what once was, but no longer is, beautifully captured. Regretting what has come between them, to final acceptance that it is what it must be, despite the pain. Poignant, heart felt words, beautifully penned.

[Tessa Melendez]

Thank you for your review. I love how thorough you can be with your reviews.