Chapter 4: Alex Parker

Why didn’t I tell him?

It would have been easy.

I knew he wouldn’t judge me.

Because he was gay too.

 

Why didn’t I tell him?

I could have been there for him.

He could have been there for me.

 

I know why I didn’t tell him.

My parents.

They would have killed me if they knew.

 

Parker kid,

Star athlete,

A+ student,

Beautiful girlfriend.

Oh yeah, he’s gay too.

 

I would be an embarrassment to the family.

No one in my family is gay.

My dad would think he failed with me.

Didn’t raise me right.

 

It’s not his fault.

It’s actually Tim’s.

He made me like I am.

 

It wouldn’t have been a bad thing,

If he was still around.

But he’s not.

 

Why did he kill himself?

If something was wrong he would have told me.

 

But then I received a note.

It was stuffed inside my locker at school.

 

I was at the bridge that night. Tim didn’t jump. Jamie pushed him.

 

I had no idea who wrote that note.

But for some reason I believed them.

 

Jamie.

She would mention things to me about Tim.

 

Like, “Why is he always looking at you?”

Or, “Why do you look at him that way? You never look at me that way.”

 

That b***h.

She was always nagging me about something.

Always telling me what to do.

She was protective of me.

Never let other girls look at me.

Not that I was interested in them anyway.

 

I wasn’t interested in her either.

 

I wanted Tim.

 

She took Tim away from me.

 

So I was going to make her pay.