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Been thru so much s**t in my life..
Travelled all over and met many a people.
Friends with as lot of people.. relationships with a few..
But never had I met anyone like you.

Someone I could connect with, someone who i actually understood and knew what they were going thru..
Never had I met anyone I could so openly say what was in my heart or mind to..

It breaks me.. crushes me constantly..
When I think about everything that happened..
Every conversation plays back in my head.. none stop!!

Honestly!! I dont know what happened.. or how it came to this..
I've been trying to figure it out!

Being accused of being a destroyer,
For breaking ones trust.. for being a stalker...

Those words haunt me..
How? Why?

I've never cared about anyone as much I did for you.. and it breaks me..no, it's already broken me the way things turned

We never spent that much time together, but what we did spend was amazing.. I've never felt more alive, more safe... being around, talking to anyone else in my life..

It's funny.. at the end we both were looking for the same thing.. to have our families together..
Some point in time I thought we both could have had that together..


I struggle to find the words to say.. All I know is that I love you JJ..And I miss having you around.. I hate that we are now strangers in each other's lives..

.................. :(