Up I Go

My minds jaw chatters and babbles, 
It collectively rattles the matters that are channeled in my head. 
I've tried pins and needles, the shims and key holes can't hold down; 
They creak to crack, wiggle out or snap, unlock the clasp to loose straps! 
The music, i've used it, overwhelmed and abused it, cranked up and blew the s**t. 
There's no tuning out, it's loud, clear surround, like a dog pound, always a hound. 
Suppression will build up, choke me, tilt the cup, erupt the veins, release reigns, It's the last lane change. 
Sedatives worked well, until my mood fell, I needed more sky, the peace in my minds eye. 
The chase to the edge, the ledge! I couldn't jump. 

Theres peace in a dream, head crack out steam, it's a scene. 
Quiet in illusion, like a mid-day communion. 
Silence in the air, I ponder and stare, wonder for air, 
My lungs wont take, realize it's fake, wipe frosting from the cake; 
Hear the grumbling, in a tunnel tumbling, 
Spat out to reality, face down on one knee, in my hand a key. 
C**k back and gulp, i'm in need of no help, 
My minds the problem, killing my souls whim. 
Release the hammer, unlocking the chatter, clearing the matter, now... 
I can climb that latter.