Prequel 3: Loveless Nightmare

Sometimes I wonder
What would happen
If I didn’t suffer
But maybe surrender
A loveless nightmare
That makes me question
What am I doing
Did I make the right decisions
The day I met you
Was so cold
You were very scared
I tried to be bold
I don’t know the details
But we saw things
We often wondered
How could they be
Ever since that day
Our love has been hard
No expressions of love
But I never gave up
We went through hell
But we came out on top
But there was darker trauma
That I know nothing about
I may not be perfect
But I’m always there to help
Giving you your space
And wishing for your growth
I wish I could touch you
Like everyone else
I wish I could love you
Without having any doubts
But something lies deep
It waits and it sleeps
I want to help fight it
But it’s hides with no peep
Sleeping in my car
For the one that I adore
Is a small price to pay
To help you endure
We both hate the cold
And shadows that follow
We both have trauma
And it’s hard to swallow
I wish I found you sooner
To protect you from the pain
From the ones that hurt you
I want to stick them in a grave
Your eyes have such beauty
But sometimes they are sad and grey
It hurts me so much
To see you in pain
I treat you like a queen
Wish you saw me like your king
We may not be normal
But you help take away my pain
From my childhood trauma
That I try to escape
Let me be your white knight
And protect you from a grave
I’m sorry I’m not perfect
Or your dream guy
But I’m always here for you
Even if I die
You gave me new meaning
Even if it hurts
But together we’re better
Even if we don’t work
I don’t want to lose you
So sorry I get sad
Communication has been hard
But when we’re together I’m glad
Monsters are real
We saw that proven true
But humans can be monsters
They are malice with no virtue
They like to make people hurt
Without a worry or care
The shadows will stop creeping
If you can be bold and dare
They stole your innocence
So I’ll give you all my strength
Please don’t give up
Or keep me at arms length
It hurts to always see
You in pain in your sleep
Or when I touch you
And you jolt and feel creeped
It breaks my heart
Every single time
Another nightmare
I hope to survive
But one I suffer
Even when I’m awake
Before the darkness gets to me
When I’m asleep
Hell awaits
Will there ever be peace
My heart struggles
As my love unbuckles
Can we finally be
What you mean to me
And endure a never ending love
Where you are my peace