My Loneliness and I

My Loneliness and I

By

Jose M. Euvin

 

 

Do you still think about me?

Is my pain still tattooed in yours?

 

How is it that you love me,

And Yet

You are with him!

 

I could relate all my pain

Back to you

My inspiration is born

In you

 

The pain fuels my desires

And

I write

 

Why does it matter

If the letters were all wrong

You knew exactly

What I meant to say

 

Who you find yourself with

At the end of the night?

I know is not me!

 

You speak of love

But do you know what love is?

Can you even feel?

 

You attach yourself to pity

Trying to change the world

To forget me!

 

Maybe by fixing someone else

Will make you forget

What has gone wrong

 

I welcome you to close our book

Help me let you go

 

Why do you make me relive it all again

As you desire

 

As a little boy

I was afraid to be alone

 

I figured

If kept the light on

Their will always be someone near

 

As I grew up

I surrounded myself around others

So I wouldn’t feel alone

 

Yet I’ve always been the loneliest soul!

 

When I met you

It suddenly changed

 

Yet I was not too sure what that feeling was

Because I never felt it before

 

I’ve forced myself to love before

But it wasn’t love

It was desolate

 

I always felt the loneliest

Yet

You changed my world

 

Not knowing what I had

I threw it all away

 

Afraid to be with someone

For once

And

Not alone

 

How funny!

When I was a kid

I never wanted to be alone

When I finally had the chance

The chance to be with someone

I chose to be alone

 

I was afraid to loose my loneliness!

 

My loneliness and I

Have become such good friends

That I was afraid to let her go

 

So I did everything wrong

To feel right once again

 

Is funny how my loneliness

Had a side

Whose face I never saw before

 

This time my word really collapsed

The thing I was always afraid of

Became my best friend

 

 My best friend

Became my worst enemy

Once I met you

 

Yet how I’ll trade it all

Just to live it once again

 

For that brief moment

I felt alive!

 

 

Reviews

[Papillion]

you start off about missing someone then it seams to change to embracing lonlyness and being alone. All in all different!

[Nicole (Carpe Diem)]

such a great message in this piece of writing. i love the last two lines 'For that brief moment I felt alive!" that is just a perfect way to end this piece.

i also loved all the questions... so nicely done.

[Bittercream]

This is a strong message and I know what you are writing about because I know that too well.
In my opinion it's very well written.

Regards -Bittercream-

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

I'd trade it all just to live it once again. This is a wonderful poem. Thank you for sharing. debileah