Air

                       I have been sucking my stomach in since I was 13. And I'm not really sure how it all began.
                      I think one day I must have been trying clothes on, or in the gym locker room, or maybe even just standing in front of a mirror, when I looked down upon my stomach with horror. I sucked my stomach in and thought it looked better that way. Now I looked like I should.
                     It's easier than you'd think, or maybe you already know. It wasn't long before I walked around that way. Everyday. Every time people were around I'd suck my stomach in. And for that time, until they were gone, I was thin.
                     I do it now even sitting down, or alone, and now it's a habit I can't seem to stop. When I try clothes on I might really be a 12 but I'll tell myself I'm a 10, because with my stomach in I am. I've done it so long it doesn't hurt, and I barely notice until I slightly breathe out. After all these years of being this way, I've only just come to realize I've been living my whole life hold in air, too afraid to breathe out and let the world see the way I really am.
                   It's hard to believe it, but I don't think I've really breathed in 10 years.

Reviews

[Marianne Miller]

This is really strong, both in writting and sentiment. Its not pushy its almost factual it totally leaves you thinking about it afterwards. It says a lot about body image, and repsrentation without being over long or even remotely preachy. I think a lot of girls will identify with this whether they admit to it or not. well dne, I love reading your stuff your obviusly have talent but whatever school your at seems to be honing it.

[ashley]

Very well written and a good message.

[smartlittleowl]

Wow. This is really good. :) I love it. I'm new here, perhaps you could check out my first story? :)

[Elizabeth]

Wow, this is amazing. And easy for most girls to relate to. I'm glad you wrote about this- it's important for most girls to learn to "breathe" and be comfortable with themselves. Well done.