Letting Go Is Never Easy

I've said my goodbye's...

Letting go is never easy.

It's filled with trite goodbyes and somedays.

I'm always here, although I shouldn't be,

There's still a tendril clinging fast.

 

I don't know how to cut the web,

Release us from this confusing trap.

Hitching breaths, gulping air,

The heart and chest ache and anxiety beckons.

 

Just the thought of letting you walk away

Fills me with brimming disquiet.

I hear the laughter, the murmured words,

The unspoken thoughts of your responses.

 

I know she's there, I hear her voice.

It's better this way, my head tells me so.

She's perfect for you.

I can never be what you want me to be....

 

Letting go is never easy,

especially of you,

Who once shared my passion with unbridled joy,

Thrummed my soul deep with those searing aqua eyes.

 

I chose to withdraw and keep a piece of me from you.

You’ll never forgive me, for saying no.

Choosing a safety and security net,

Instead of letting myself fall.

 

Tumbling, head over heels, so passionately I loved you.

But I never shared my darkest needs,

Fear of the unknown too much for me.

My heart is cracking…can’t you see?

 

The breadth of my desire you’ll never know,

It is more than I can bear.

I lock it away in darkness and pain,

Knowing I have to give you away.

 

Why…oh why…couldn’t I see?

Didn’t you see my heart in my eyes?

My longing, my despair?

My choice wasn’t my heart at all.

 

Yet, I bear the cross of my decision.

My stupid, rational, thinking mind.

Curse my heart and my conscious,

What was I thinking of losing you?

 

You’ve moved on, you had no choice.

I know that now…

How could you wait for something, someone,

Who would never be there?

 

A piece of me is forever yours,

Always will be, eternal more,

I’ll sigh at night when dreams await,

knowing I’ll see your aqua eyes once again.

 

Letting go is never easy,

Especially when it's you.

Any Who Winner

Jul 20, 2011

• Any Who!!!
• Letting Go Is Never Easy

 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[KAREN]

Solid write! Great flow and emotion!

[JennaMarie]

Very powerful piece! You express your emotions so clearly and eloquently. My ability to relate to this piece made it all the more beautiful and poignant. Great job and I look forward to reading more of your work!

[deeps]

This has so much truth to it. I really loved this write.
Thi is quite wonderful and inspiring really.

[Jeremy Baker]

This is the truth, Kat. Love hurts - a lot - but you have expressed this with so much artistry, it's beautiful to read.

[Lily Mae]

"A piece of me is forever yours,
Always will be, eternal more,
I’ll sigh at night when dreams await,
knowing I’ll see your aqua eyes once again.

Letting go is never easy,
Especially when it's you."

I love the power of these words and yet such resignation to the truth to self.. Excellent write..x

[DONALD EISSLER]

WOW I have the perfect person to send this too
this is very moving
like a film of my past
rewinding every time
when i dont want it to last.
tk
I really enjoy your work Kat It is written not in a poets code but written with words that we all can understand ...Too many times good work gets lost in trying to figure out what the person is saying . Then only a select few can really grasp what is being put forth ...oh well there is my words of wiz-dumb for today

[Niki Wilson]

So true ! and heartbreaking makes me wanna cry..!

[Chris]

Society SAYS you can love only one... then laughs and spits HARD in your face... when the lie is known.

Kat, you had so much to say... and did.

take care,
Chris

[Dreamer]

this is touching! Ur emotions are really portrayed well. the only thing i would suggest is to maybe remove the period at the end because it makes it kind of abrupt and instead use ellipses (...) it gets the impression of lingering emotions and on going thoughts which i think would be appropriate for this piece (bt thats just me:)) good write