I Hope She Murders Me Tonight

I hope someone murders me tonight. I hope they break in to those doors while I'm alone, I hope they find me in my room, peacefully napping. I hope she pulls out a very large, sharp, kitchen knife. I hope she stabs me with it several times. I hope I feel the sharpness and pain of the knife going through my flesh. I hope it feels refreshing. I hope I appreciate it. I hope the physical pain mirrors my emotional pain. I hope I see the blood. I hope the intruder yells at me. I hope whenever I try to hold on to a shred of life, that she loudly reminds me of my life, and I hope that she yells it so loudly that my brain raddles, and that her yelling is just as painful as the wounds she inflicted. I hope she reminds me of how stupid I am. I hope she reminds me of how ugly and repulsive I am. I hope she reminds me of my thin, curveless figure. I hope she tells me how much she hates me. I hope she tells me how much everyone hates me. I hope she tells me Jose felt sorry for me, and never really loved me. I hope she reminds me that Im a financial burden on my mother. I hope she reminds me that Im 23, and don't even have any real freedom. I hope she reminds me of all the friends I don't have. I hope she tells me that I have no point in living. I hope she reminds me that she's doing me a favor. I hope my life slowly drifts out of me. I hope I could still feel the pain as life slowly escapes me. I hope I die slowly and misreably. I hope she cleans the blood up and manage to make my room look spotless and innocent. I hope she takes me and bury me somewhere so my family wont find my lifeless, murdered body in my room. I hope this finally sets me free, I hope death finally sets me free, I hope death saves me

Reviews

[Donna]

Wow! I have never read anything like that. In one of your comments you said you were going through a very complicated time in your like. It doesn't matter what your going through, please don't ever feel like that again.

[Carol Cashes]

Hmmph...hmmph...hmmph!! Imma pray for you...

Seriously, this world needs you to be here - girls like Jamie need to see you and old white guys need to fear you.

[Madame Murrell]

Thanks Ms Carol. This was written when I was going through a very complicated time in my life. Thanks again for this lovely comment, it bought a smile to my face. Would be reading some of your work soon!