Pain

Poem about my husband

Crying alone yet again,
Will this pain ever end?
I look into my children's eyes,
As I tend to each one of their cries.
How could you ever do this?
You took away all their bliss!
How could you lose yourself in such a way?
Now you aren't here for them everyday!
They blame me for all your mistakes.
Why do I deserve such a fate?
You take, and take, and take some more,
You accuse, and abuse, and expect me to adore.
Why should I stay after what you did?
You even did it in front of our kid!
You don't, or at least you didn't care!
How could you even dare?
You say you love me, do you know what love is?
You say you want me, your chance you missed!
I'm so sorry for the pain you are in.
I pray you become whole once again.
I feel for you I really do,
But I deserve to be happy too.
I will always love you, know it is true.
Please if you truly love me take the cue.
You haunt me in my dreams at night,
and in the mornings it's pain I fight.
Pain from hurting you because I can't stay,
Pain from living life alone each day.
You took from me something I'll never get back,
Yet I can't hate you even on days my emotions lack.
I pray you find the happiness you deserve.
I'm sorry life threw us yet another curve.
I won't take the kids from you, just don't mess up please.
If you cause them pain again my heart will surly squeeze.
Hurt our kids another time and watch as my heart turns to stone.
I will hate you from my core and through my very bones!

Author's Note

I feel I still need to tinker with this some. I am having troubles with choosing a title and am open for suggestions

Reviews

[alifeacoustic]

It is always the one left to clear up the others mess that gets the blame from kids who don't understand the truth of the reality you find yourself within. It is always the pain caused to kids that make that heart ache to the point of breaking. Bad partner, good father hides a lot from those adoring little eyes you cherish more than life itself. Such beauty and poignant pictures painted with such care and beauty. Beautiful.

[Rachael Lea]

Thank you. I shared this with a few people at my work with a few other poems this was their favorite

[Nisreen]

Nothing harder than being with someone that simply cant love himself enough to love someone else
I feel your every word

Great piece

[Rachael Lea]

Thank you so much. It was a difficult write

[Ryan Riley]

Great job expressing your emotions in this. An honest plea to not mess up with your kids anymore then he has or to hurt them as he did you. Not an easy task yo write such raw and detailed emotions.

[Rachael Lea]

Thank you I never expected it to turn out how it did. It was a very hard yet very easy one to write. When I shared it with my friends along with the four others I wrote that day they all said this one was their favorite. I wouldn't have even though to post it otherwise.

[Melissa Lynn Keeling]

Poems that speak truths from the heart are the ones I relate to the most. This one I felt first word to the very last. Told my story, could have left this on the kitchen table the last time I left the place and time that I never went back. Thank you for Sharing

[Rachael Lea]

Thank you so much I am glad you liked it.

[Rachael Lea]

I am so sorry you can relate to it. I hope you have found happiness.

[Melissa Lynn Keeling]

I loved it! And I did find happiness, well mostly it found me. Its how it goes life's highs and lows. :)

[Willard Wells]

"You even did it in from of our kid!" to "You even did it in front of our kid!"

Well done piece of fading love. In all relationships we have reasons, but the only reason is loss of respect. I don't know what happened, but loss of respect is the end result. Good luck in moving forward and staying for the kids is seldom a good long term choice.

You will come out on the other side a better person and your children if given time will see who should be receiving the respect. Well done.

[Rachael Lea]

Oh my goodness I didn't even see that typo. Thank you for that.
Yes it is, I was put through a lot but I am getting stronger and stronger each day.
My children are not the ones who are disrespecting me thank goodness I noticed I didn't clarify that in the poem it is the family members on the outside who are doing that.

[Willard Wells]

I find my age has brought me the vision of so many words in my life that the typo's are more apparent to me. Now if I could only do the same for my own work. Thanks and I am glad you are on the other side of some of the pain and good luck.

[Inject Positivity]

I agree with the writer below that the theme is based on pain so 'pain' is absolutely appropriate for the title....The poem is very heart warming and brilliantly penned too.....

[Rachael Lea]

Thank you. I was crying when I wrote this one

[Inject Positivity]

Oh my god that means it is based on your real life? This is so sad....I can imagine how hurt you were writing this my frnd......

[JMaster1]

I would just call it "Pain" . you expressed your pain in such a good way

[Rachael Lea]

Thank you.