I love you, I do.

"I Love You, I do." Is a poem I wrote about a relationship surviving through the struggles of depression and anxiety. Finally being able to overcome this battle you will finally be able to find love.

Just shut up and listen! This fighting is getting ridiculous.

We're too young, what would everybody think?

Where could we end up? Where do we go?

So afraid. So much silence

Don't be mad, please understand me

I'm trapped inside my mind, a dark shallow wasteland of fuckedupness

I don't speak because you know if I speak I will cry

So that I won't cry I will hold my breath

I'm blue in the face ready to explode

My every emotion reflects off the redness in my nose and cheeks

The pounding in my heart mocking the turmoil in my thoughts

Utter silence.

Do not get angry or feel quick to give up

Listen to my silence. Just shut up and listen!

This life is draining me but this love is paralyzing me

You numb me and hush my demons when your near, taking away all the pain and making me forget

The real world as we know it is full of opportunists, and crooks

Life is hard, tough, unfair, unbeatable and sometimes only the strongest win. But I feel weak.

Still silent desperately aching to get a word out

The air has escaped out of my lungs as I try to breath but I cant

Complete and utter silence.

I look at him, innocent brown eyes narrowed in defeat

He stops talking and hugs me, he listened.

Without words to go by, he knew exactly what I said

He knew I needed him to hold me, he knew I need just HIM

Infinite, Complete and Utter Silence.. I am afraid.

Without a single word he breaks down my walls, wipes my eyes and pulls me from darkness

Still looking into his genuine brown eyes I fight myself internally to speak the words he needs to hear

I gasp catching wind, breathing in the crisp winter air.

Feeling my heart pounding in my chest and the truth in my words, I look up and say "I Love You,I Do."

Author's Note

Ignore grammar imperfections please! Please give me feed back and, oher topics to write about, this is a hobby.

Reviews

[JoeM]

You convey the experiencing of depression very well, I hope to never experience it, well, not for long.
For a topic, how about how you, as a 'mini-gpd' constructing a world that would keep mankind interested in participating, with enough randomness and challenge to keep us from becoming bored stiff?
If you prefer the 'dark side,' a poem of what could be in a serial killers mind as he seeks and disposes of a victim?
Too dark? A young child's conviction that his parents are going to part because of something it did?Of course, there's always the excittement of getting ready to go to Disney World.

[Tanya Y.]

That actually sounds like a good idea. This idea will be the focus of some of my new coming poems. I do have Depression and anxiety which is totally obvious in this poem but I kind of like the idea of the world not being so bad.. Thank you for the helpful tip! Stay tuned lol I got one brewing for ya lol

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometime too many words lead us to darkness.
"He knew I needed him to hold me, he knew I need just HIM
Infinite, Complete and Utter Silence.. I am afraid."
The above lines are true. We need silence and thoughts. When we remember what we were. We can appreciate the person who stays with us. Thank you for sharing the powerful and worthwhile poetry.
Coyote

[Tanya Y.]

Thank you so much guys, I am so glad you both enjoyed it! Have a look at my other poems too if you want. :)

[Eddie]

Very nice poem!! It's very beautifully written.

[Tanya Y.]

Thank you, I try lol :D

[matrixmark]

Wow, could really feel a lot of passion, anger and frustration come through this well written short piece.

Mark.

[Tanya Y.]

I'm so glad you liked it :D

[Bertha]

I could see the picture of the two in a room. One hidden in silence while the other talks. But they both share one thing, love. Nice poem!

[Tanya Y.]

Thank you for understanding! i am so glad you liked it.

[Bertha]

You are welcome