Flesh

Deep
I gave myself a fright today, it
Didn’t hurt that bad
I have no feelings anyway but
All that blood
Leaking from my aching

Limb makes me

Chew my tongue over the

Sheets, pyjama pants that get
Washed too often

By someone that would notice

And be hurt by the outlines of

A bandage

Bright red stains all

Impossible

to get completely clean.

Me

I lie in the dark all day
Steel boned, they’re heavy
Weighing down the flesh
Protecting me from mattress

Springs, old music blaring protecting

Me from the voices all around

That set off the voices in my head.

 

And later I get up

Glide out to the kitchen, suck

Another cigarette down my swollen

Throat and stare blankly

At the fridge light, yellow

Like my fingers like

The fat I saw beneath my skin today

I shut that door again

And wonder why I feel

Nothing at all

Reviews

[linear]

I feel a sadness within, a reaching out, only to find no one home.......and deep inside you're screaming...help me, love me....but there is no one to care.......

[Brad]

"And later I get up

Glide out to the kitchen, suck

Another cigarette down my swollen

Throat and stare blankly"

powerful stuff...think i need me a whisky

[Chris]

a very strong and thought provoking read... I feel kinda hurt inside seeing how your thoughts reflect pain.

[...]

. reading these moving and true words again ...
. rediscovering truths that you express so uniquely and poetically ...

[EMF]

Great rhythm and flow behind this, and strangley captivating. A bleak, depressing work that works perfectly. Poetry isn't just about puppies and flowers. A cracking read. I look forward to reading more

[...]

brilliantly written
there's too much
to deal with
and the exhaustion
is just too much
sometimes

[Miss Fox]

Your rhythm is so strangely attractive. I usually like an easy, flowing piece, but this gives it an edge of... not insanity, but maybe anxiety.
"Another cigarette down my swollen
Throat"
and it just makes me want one more :P

[lifesmith]

the flow is so weirdly refreshing...the use of a single word to sort of start another idea...This is definitely a good read

[S.G.P.]

This really does take me through your day. So much to think about.