What a day

No structure no format no organization... just a rough day as I looked back through pictures and saw myself at so many phases in life.

What a day as I sit and reflect 

On pictures from the past

Moments in time loaded

With happiness and smiles

If life could have only been that good forever

But forever is just an illusion

And everything eventually crumbles apart

At least that is the way my life has been

Everything I have ever loved has

Either let me down or has broken into 

Millions of pieces and all I am left with 

Are pictures to remind me of how happy

I was once upon a time. 

If life could have only been that good forever. 

Tears fall from my eyes just seeing my smile

In some of these pictures, a time when the future

Of life only seemed bright and loaded with promise.  

I guess a picture of myself today would reflect 

A vision of lost hope, fear and worry… 

Still battling daily to find who I am….

What does the future hold now?

What is the picture of tomorrow going to look like?

Author's Note

One of those days... put a few pics to show what I am looking at... everything from childhood pics to last week.

Reviews

[ExquisiteEyes]

I think the poems that have no structure can convey the emotions in raw form. In this poem, as you have said, it reflects how chaotic your mind was.
I have also gone through days when I felt like tearing up at every small happy memory that croosed my mind because I could not experience those emotions anymore. Even now, I struggle to find out I actually am and who I want to be.
'But forever is just an illusion' - these words made quite an impact on me. So few words to convey an idea this big.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you ExquisiteEyes :) I didn't even send out RR's for this one I just wrote what I felt and just kind of left it. I'm glad you liked it :)

[Frozen Eyes]

"If life could have only been that good forever"
-a very beautiful thought framed in so simple words..
Love the poem :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you frozen eyes :) I had the music playing and pictures going in a slideshow and just wanted to write about it... I'm glad you liked it :)

[Jamestown]

Your honest approach to your writing is really cool!
I can bet no I'm absolutely sure everybody is on board with this review,
keep doing you my friend, what a pleasure to read:)
Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much James... sometimes I don't write for a while and something sparks a desire to write and get things out... yesterday it was just going through pictures of happier times. Appreciate your reviews always buddy :)

[~]

I always love your honesty in your writes. You truly wear your heart on your sleeve and it is just amazing to see how well you convey all of the feelings.
Loved the pictures. I hope the future pictures will keep you smiling!! :D
p.s. are you the adorable bunny, or the mutant turtle??

[AaronFreitas]

I am the mutant turtle... my lil sister was the bunny :) That's like our favorite picture together haha... I appreciate your review and yes I do wear my heart on my sleeve... everyone should know me pretty well :)

[~]

hehehe :D yes yes we do :D

[Kelly Scheppers]

I believe we all have days like these, I know I do. I think it's all a part of life. It was so much easier when we were kids, every day was better than the one before, especially when school let for the summer. Remember that? What a high it was, knowing so many days were opened to us...pretty much like they are now, but with a lot more responsibility.

Indulge yourself with something you enjoy, that usually does it for me. Or, just blast the stereo for a while!

[AaronFreitas]

Oh life was so much easier when I was in that little ninja turtle outfit for halloween! lol Man just having the freedom of that summer to use our minds, be creative and have fun! I got the music blasting right now Kelly :) Good advice

[fattycbreezy52]

Wow such a lovely poem with a tinge of bitter reality attached.
Every fantasy and dreams are beautiful but adding reality to 'em make that look more beautiful and genuine.
Amazing poem and amazing pics.Always keep smiling:)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you my friend... those pics stood out as I was trying to find a couple to post just to kind of show from my view what I was looking at. I smile in almost all my pics or I have the dumbest look on my face cause it's fun lol... but yeah it's just one of those days the memories just kind of left me feeling a certain way. Appreciate your words my friend :) Nice new pic :)

[fattycbreezy52]

Haha smile makes you the happiest person alive and thanks a lot:)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Aaron this is so profoundly sad as you reflect upon the past and where you feel you are. What you have to consider is that your self depreciation in your writing give a clue to the fact that you are a decent and caring man! this is a very deep piece! Thank you for having the courage to post it!

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks John for your reads... it does take a lot to post these feelings... feelings that I don't usually share and hold in but I guess the path I'm on I share and get it out rather than hold them in. I appreciate your words my friend :)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

You are courageous Aaron and I value your friendship!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you John and I value yours buddy :)

[silent poet]

Heartbreaking and beautiful, Every line of pain, lost hope, wishful thinking and my heart and soul sat there going down my own memory lane, glancing in the near by mirror, knowing the feels you express because It's just too much not to admit and not enough at the same time. you always bring life into every thing and I truly appreciate the share, the words you place so nicely on paper and your little pieces of life you allow others to look in on.. we are all not that far off, as we may think.. :) you're a great person Aaron with much ahead of you. I see it!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much my friend :) I blame google photos lol... I've been uploading all my pics and just tons of pics so many good memories...so many damn pics of me and my ex wife and it just kind of got sad and turned into a s****y day. Lots of thoughts. I appreciate your response always and your words... you are a true friend :)

[silent poet]

You're truly very welcome Aaron :) I understand completely but your s****y day sure made for a beautiful piece!! Hope your night and days are brighter and thank you Aaron :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks for being there to share words to make things better :)

[silent poet]

xoxo Aaron :)

[andrew mitchell]

Well done on your write my friend and how we go through life with uncertainty not knowing what's around the corner especially when what was up in your life is now down like a big dipper. just need mates to hoist you up buddy! I hate them days!

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah it's tough sometimes my friend.... just reflecting on so many good times... thanks for your words buddy :)