Only If

When it came so sudden, I felt nothing, just pain...

When I look back at the first time we met and talked

I remember the past as vivid as though

It was just yesterday that we talked about things

And yet in reality, ages had passed ever since

 

Now there is that memory of your smiles and your jokes

The memory of your hand gesturing as we’re close

There is that memory that whenever you pout

Nothing’s really wrong, just that you have doubts

 

I knew you so brief and we’ve been good friends

Above all, you were wiser than most of most men

You taught me to pursue things and follow my heart

Now it is I who speaks while I silently cry

 

Things are really temporal and things are not the same

Yesterday you’re there talking, joking about with smiles

But as the morning passed by,

Here you are, silently, alone in your bed to cry

 

If only I had knew this time would be

I should have paid attention

Now I know why you’ve been sweeter

Because soon after I’ll be left bitter

 

Is that a way to tell me that soon I’ll cry myself?

That’s why you always told me, you loved me for the best?

If only I knew better, I should have said the same

Instead I shrugged my shoulders and left all things unsaid

 

Now I think regrets are too late

But time and time again,

I’ll never forget the memory

Of us as we talked and just sat there

 

Where cries are endless laughters

And pains are worth to share

Many might not understand it

But soon and somehow

 

They’ll know the very pain

The deepest that I have felt in my life

The pain that you only know

When you have lost a buddy, a friend and a good man…

 

 

Author's Note

This have been so sudden, a bucket of tears? I don't have any anymore... It's just so sudden... So in pain...

Reviews

[Sierra Nerys]

this poem does an outstanding job of portraying the raw emotion of the time. it isn't hard to tell that it was a painful thing to go through, and that it has definitely touched you. reading through your other reviews, I noticed "pain and passion very nicely portrayed." this is undeniable, and the combination of the two has a lasting effect on the reader. great job.

[Eve Brown]

This is fantastic. Wonderful job.

[daydreamer]

this poem captures your imagination straight away. Pain and passion very nicely portrayed. great work:)

[Sahar moonlight]

this poem touchs the heart from inside. so deep andso true

[Seanne Tholltree]

beautiful..this is beautiful,,,im speechless..


especially the lines

They’ll know the very pain

The deepest that I have felt in my life

The pain that you only know

When you have lost a buddy, a friend and a good man…

[CHRIS ANDES]

...haha, I like your style in writing...
..it seems logical yet realistic
=]

[Lizzy]

beautiful poem. i can feel the hurt and regret. it makes me want to cherish the moment and say as much "i love yous" as i can, because i never know if a time will come in which i can't. well done.

[Priscilla Sayers]

A very heart felt poem that left me wondering exactly how this person was lost to you. Well penned.