Part of the Journey is the End

Not everything that ends is a loss

Why do people come and go, I pondered. "It's because you're not enough", my ego replied. You're not and will never be good enough. I only see a holy dread when I look in the mirror. I cursed myself until the darkness engulfed me.

Where did I go wrong? When all I can ever recall is me being so giving. I gave too much that I didn't leave any for myself. Perhaps expecting someone to reciprocate was the only mistake I made. 

For whatever reason, people eventually leave. And now I learned to not point my finger at me. I'm not too much. Some people can't really just match your intensity. And that's it. 

No matter what you do. No matter how you want someone to stay. Everything will come to an end. When people no longer serve your energy, they will find their way out of your life.

Author's Note

I'm a novice writer. I'd appreciate hearing your opinions.

Reviews

[Fabian G. Franklin]

John Donne wrote, "No man is an island" and I read it and thought, then why do tourists come and go and leave me surrounded in water all the time. I don't put whiskey in my water anymore though. I found power in positive drinking once but I had to relinquish the desire to milder climes. I got snowed in one night at a friend's house and the place caught fire in the wee A.M. An ember fell on my straw cowboy hat and burned a hole in the brim. The fire dept. came as we all stood out in the yard and watched the place burn. They investigated and wrote the landlord a citation for putting up paneling where fireboard should have been behind the stove pipe. I've been a light sleeper ever since. I think you have subject/verb confusion in the last line. Your verb should be singular if your subject is plural and vice-versa. i.e. "He/she "serves" your energy but "people" "serve" your energy. Other than that I found nothing amiss.

[The High Priestess]

Thank you for reviewing and for the correction :)

[emmajoygreen]

Your finely laid words are sad but specific. Have been thinking how to respond because I do feel your reaction. There must be people you'd never want to know or love or dream of.. and of course happens in reverse On both sides there is the right to pick, consider then gratefully decide. The more people you reach out to, the more you learn about others, plus essentially, Yourself. That matters. It isn't a case of 'going wrong', but more that friendships will happen with give and take much to the fore. Plus, takes time. Your thoughts flow very well, you explain, use good phrasing. Plus, certainly made me think. Many thank yous. Keep safe, take care.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

I’ve lost several friends over the years
But now I have a lot of online friends that I don’t know in the flesh and never will meet ever somewhere in other states some overseas
So I’m happy with that !
I feel that people left me cos I got boring
Or they saw the real me
Or they just didn’t like me
Either way I don’t care anymore !
I’m sick of being hurt over it
So I can relate well to your poem
Well done 👍

[The High Priestess]

We gain so many friends when we're trying to please people. But we set our boundaries overtime and some didn't like that. That's when you know who is really a friend or not. Real friends will respect your boundaries and others just like to take you for granted. It's draining and it's just right to remove them from your circle. And no we're not boring we're just built different.

[Alexis_McLeod]

I can appreciate this poem because it speaks of the pain of loss. But it also is strong because it indicates that the persona has come to an epiphany and is now resolved.

[John the Baptist]

It sounds as though you have developed insight into your situation. Your low self esteem causes you to seek fulfillment in others, when only you can deliver that fulfillment.

[The High Priestess]

You're exactly right. Amazing thoughts, thanks!