Modern Day Judas

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Undoubted kindness
Leave it unsaid
Mistaken love
Friendship revealed
Only to crash upon our heads
~*~
Endless race track
The cars race in my head
My thoughts won't cease
Wanting nothing more
The comfort of my bed
~*~
Dreams once offered peace
Now play into my dread
Fighting to be perfect
Leaving nothing unsaid
~*~
Modern day Judas
My faults are my own
I refuse to believe
That I let them all show
~*~
I hid it away
Marked the perfect friend
Stashed away everything
Masked myself
For this game of pretend
~*~
I never once listened
This I claim truth
It's hard to play Jesus
When the role doesn't fit you
~*~
You made your mistakes
As I have mine
We made this bed
Now we must lie
~*~
I hide from myself
As I have the world
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
In this anything but ordinary world.

Author's Note

I'm not perfect, I will never be perfect. I am a horrible friend and in time everybody will see that. I have my ups and downs, a lot more often than a normal girl and I have a hard time listening if I am not amused or if it doesn't concern me. I like to play games, but not with your head. I love to dream but my dreams bring me nothing anymore. How much longer am I going to have to pay for my sins? Is there no way to cut the sentence short? I guess not. No matter what I will always be this way. You can't change who you are or how you act when you are alone all you can change is what people think they know and actually know about you.

Reviews

[Ruth]

This is wow! Self reflection at its best...sorrowful but with realisation that nothing is perfect...wonderful write love! xx

[☯]

"I hid it away
Marked the perfect friend
Stashed away everything
Masked myself
For this game of pretend"

A very strong and intimate poem. Powerful and strong, and tells the horrors of truth. Especially the last line, a world, everything but ordinary. An amazing poem. And no one is perfect, we all make mistakes, and find some things out the hard way. Excellent write.

[RedInk524]

It's hard to play Jesus
When the role doesn't fit you

Wow, i double taked when i went across that. lol, thats pretty powerful.
Good poem, so many good lines in it. Its better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not.

[∂αʌ<..]

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
In this anything but ordinary world.


wonderfully well-written!

[Kayla K]

"It's hard to play Jesus when the role doesn't fit you." Wow, that was powerful. I might be writing that down in my notebook if you don't mind. It sums a lot up.

[joshua deathdealer]

Leaving nothing unsaid. Very well penned.

[Aristede Craig Jr]

awesome i loved it omg awesome much love when the role doesnt fit you...

[clairvoyantmars]

i'm sure that, with the right people, you will not doubt yourself. have faith and make the effort to find the people worth your time and friendship. :)) good work!

[roy mccarthy]

they dont sell root beer in australia.....

[+Naomi+]

This is awesome. I saw the title and immediately I thought of Mother Monster's connection to this :P Great work. I love the second stanza:
"Endless race track
The cars race in my head
My thoughts won't cease
Wanting nothing more
The comfort of my bed"

100/100