No More...

A need to express emotions after receiving some bad news in hospital yesterday

Wait… Wait… Wait…

 

Silent and somber, he lies in wait of medical results

Awaiting the white coat with whom he consults

Fear of answers, makes his body tremble

Filled with questions, as the doctors all assemble

 

Wait… Wait… Wait…

 

His thoughts trail off, escaping from his bed

His body lies stagnant, though his mind has fled

Pale blue sheets a soft reminder of the sky

Faint echoes of steps, as people pass him by

 

Wait… Wait… Wait…

 

Thoughts of his loved ones fill his heart

Even though for now, they are far apart

He hopes to go home and see them all soon

To escape the dreary, pristine hospital room

 

Wait… Wait… Wait…

 

Cold reality, a distraction needed…

The dragon’s fiery breath interceded

Burning, blazing inferno of astonishing fire

As red explodes, engulfing the sky a sight to admire

 

Wait… Wait… Wait…

 

Clatter and clank of trolleys out in the hallway

Feeding the sick, keeping hunger at bay

Nurses rushing to help, with hearts so kind

To every patient that they are assigned

 

Wait… Wait… Wait…

 

White walls, a restriction from the beauty outside

Where the dragons red breath and darkness collide

Black silently steals the illuminating light of the day

Plunging into darkness as the days images fade

 

Wait… Wait… No more

 

As the doctor creeks open the door

Heavy footsteps pound the hard, cold floor

He silently sits next to the metal framed bed

And starts to shake his already balding head

 

No more… No more… No more…

 

Breath… constricted, under arrest

As he awaits the results of his test

“I’m sorry son, the tumor has grown

That is what the MRI has shown”

 

No more… No more… No more…

 

Wait… no more, the answer is here

Inside he burns with impending fear

“I think it’s time, another round of chemo is due”

Heart drops at the thought of what he has to get through

 

No more… No more… No more…

 

He sits, contemplation resting solemnly on his face

He had his hopes up, thought he was winning the race

He tells his love, his closest friend

“Don’t worry baby, it’s is not the end”

 

No more… No more… No more…

 

Fear consumes him, somewhere in the dark abyss

His love, worried, a tender kiss parts from her lips

Forced courage spreads across his expression

Two souls understand, a silent confession

 

No more… No more… Please…

 

Both desire the war to be over

Until that day, together they will fight on

On his chest her head gently lay

As he survives to fight another day

 

Please… Please… End this…

Author's Note

After being sick recently, I got told yesterday that the tumor in my brain has grown and that I need to go for chemo... again... I need to release some emotions, so you will probably be seeing a few sad/dark poems from me. Thank you for pausing with me, thank you for taking the time to read. I know how valuable time is. Love and peace to you all.

Reviews

[J. Kell]

I am so sorry Cairo. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I love the repetition in this poem "No more… No more…" it gives us a window into your heart. I know that you want this nightmare to end, keep being brave and fight on. I have no idea what you must be going through but I feel it in your poem. You are an excellent poet, fantastic poem.

[DJ]

Thank you my friend, your words mean a lot to me. Glad you liked it! I will keep fighting, thank you for your encouragement and support, I really appreciate it.

[B-poet]

A valiant & profound poem. Sorry you're growing through such an uphill battle with your health. Pray & remain positive that this cancer will be defeated & conquered like it needs to be. Great work. A compelling write & read. :)

[DJ]

Thank you so much for your kind review Bpoet, and for your support. Kind words are always so up-lifting at times like these.

[Douglas White]

Simple, yet powerfully heartfelt. Words always shine when written from truth deep within; these glow with a powerful intensity. Anxiety, terror, despair - every emotion was clear, allowing me to feel along with you. That is *true* poetry, as far as I'm concerned. This is the way it should be written - to feel, not just read.

For that particular news - stay strong and fight hard. The dice aren't done rolling yet. When it gets too hard, just remember to look around to those who care, and who are waiting to help hold you up.

[DJ]

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment my friend and for the beautiful kind words you have written. They are truly up-lifting and I am so glad you felt along with me. I will fight hard, don't you worry, I'm planning on kicking cancer's a*s!

[NA]

:( tears falling here..I'm gutted for you..your write is so emotional, my heart felt so heavy when reading..praying and hoping that you get well x

[DJ]

Sorry I made you cry Raven. There will probably be quite a few emotional writes over the next few weeks as I decide on what to do and start my next course of action. I really appreciate you reading my work and thank you for your kindness my friend, you have a beautiful soul.

[Sam]

I am sorry to hear the bad news. Keep fighting Cairo.... it is not the end. I see a lot of strength in these words. The message the heart is amazing.
There are three phases I see in this poem:
Fear:
Silent and somber, he lies in wait of medical results
Awaiting the white coat with whom he consults
Fear of answers, makes his body tremble
Filled with questions, as the doctors all assemble

Impatience:

White walls, a restriction from the beauty outside
Where the dragons red breath and darkness collide
Black silently steals the illuminating light of the day
Plunging into darkness as the days images fade

and Uncertainty:
He sits, contemplation resting solemnly on his face
He had his hopes up, thought he was winning the race
He tells his love, his closest friend
“Don’t worry baby, it’s is not the end”

I feel so bad for you. But please keep the faith keep your pen and paper close to help you in times as hard as this. Stay strong. Thank you for the read request.

[DJ]

Thank you Sam! Oh I like the phases you picked out, to be honest I didn't notice them myself so thank you for that! I will stay strong and keep fighting, thank you for your words of kindness and for taking the time to read my work, I really appreciate it my friend.

[Sam]

Your welcome and I am glad I could shed some light on what I discovered in reading your work. Some times it fresh eyes to spot something new. Thank you, My friend.

[DJ]

It certainly does :)

[Reggie Sapphire]

i can feel the emotions from this beautiful well written piece from you, just dont give up, even if it feels like your at the end, there is beauty in the moment,

[DJ]

Thank you Reggie :) I won't give up.

[bobc]

Cairo...sorry to hear this news. You take good, good care and write as much about this as you want or need. I'll be pleased to read at any time...bobc

[DJ]

Thank you Bob. I will probably be venting quite a lot over the next few days, I appreciate you offering to read them my friend.

[Tom]

A commendable write once more, your courage and conviction are a tribute to yourself and all your loved ones !

Another brilliant poem from your pen !

[DJ]

Thank you so much Tom, that means a lot.

[Hana Saemon]

My prayers with you. One day, you'll say "Wait no more". Til then, stay safe.

[DJ]

Thank you

[Broken Wings]

Firstly, I'm so sorry to hear your bad news :( keep fighting Cairo, your strength is admirable, your courage is overwhelming! Kick cancer hard! Secondly, this is so emotional... I can feel your impatience and anxiousness as he waits for the results.

"White walls, a restriction from the beauty outside
Where the dragons red breath and darkness collide
Black silently steals the illuminating light of the day
Plunging into darkness as the days images fade"
These lines are incredible, I love the imagery you use, you paint such a nice picture of the sunset and of the beginning of nightfall. The words you use are beautiful and flow so well.

" Forced courage spreads across his expression
Two souls understand, a silent confession"
Forced courage, for your love's sake is so selfless, in that moment, you were thinking of her. That is beautiful and I love the silent confession as you both know what you're both thinking.

I am truly sorry for your pain, but you write so beautifully. Keep fighting and stay strong

[DJ]

Thank you for your kind review, for taking the time to read and for your encouraging and empowering words. It means a lot to me.