Chapter VII

Everything came down, you were gone. One week was all it took. You were gone. You were gone for a long time, I just couldn't see it. Your face was burned into my eyes. Now I felt everything I swallowed. Coming back up, I vomited all the words you spat at at me. I gave back all the hatred you felt. I saw walk away before, this time I too turn my head I will not look back I gave you everything and you wanted more. I thank you for giving me these happy memories. I always knew it would end like this, the scale was never in my favor for what everything you gave I gave double. I'm sick of being quiet, you're oblivious to how I feel. Now from above discard me like many others have. I am alone now and I will get better. I won't ever become what you wanted me to be. What I couldn't see is f*****g clear now, I finally got my eyes fixed. You never cared I was a watch to you to pass the time, I was crossed and beaten up. I trusted you with everything I had. I would've died for you. You were in control and you know how to pull the strings. Leave me with my sins, I was hit when I was wide open, I will heal but you... you never had a f*****g scratch. Label me the villain and leave me. I don't care. I wish I didn't. You refused to fight I don't to hear it anymore I made it very clear, you didn't have enough. You never needed any help, I won't listen to your shame. Angels lie. I was so close... I am not okay and that's fine. I forgive you, I love you.