Mirrors

Mirrors

A Poem by Gee
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Vanity is not a strong point, same goes for forgiveness

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It has been nigh on sixty years
and although I'm with you daily, hourly,
I seek you out less and less
as seeing you is like seeing him,
and that I chose not to do fifty plus years ago
as abandonment, even then to a young child,
and more so now as a father,
was neither wanted nor understood.
I guess though this would have been worse
if all households not in the same boat,
many kids, mum, and strange men leaving
in the small hours, secretly, but not,
bad company seemingly better than none at all
for women whose self worth,
in their own eyes, worthless.

It has been nigh on sixty years
and, although not through choice,
I will see you later,
in shop windows, in puddles, passing cars,
perhaps leading me to reflect on what may have been...




© 2021 Gee


Author's Note

Gee
Although this makes perfect sense to me it may not to you, if this the case please tell

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I think you once mentioned in a comment to me, about abandonment
As a kid by your father…..( or your father was abusive) in any case to look back on those painful memories 50 years ago is bitter, and painful, and now as you are a father, you are especially protective of your own children…and to think perhaps how your “mum” got through it raising you kids is equally as heartbreaking. A well written piece and heartfelt.
Best
Betty


Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Thanks Betty.
We seem to forget rather
than forgive ..forgiving is
is much more difficult.
Emotions run deep within
this piece ..understandable
from a child point of view
of his father's abandonment
of family..well penned and
.... expressed



Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Thank you Fran Marie
I had to read this a few times to place the perspective but I caught on. I disagree with the assertion that forgiveness is a weakness though. It often takes great strength to forgive but it's something we do for ourselves, rather than for others. The British band "Bush" put out an album titled "Razorblade Suitcase" about 25 years ago. I thought the title was inspired since many times we are prone to carry around luggage that cuts us to the quick. I certainly see traces of my own father in myself, both the good and the not so good. I have his quick temper, a thing I've learned to control through years of practice. But I also have his strength, determination and courage which have been invaluable to my survival. A thought invoking read. Well done.

Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

I think a father daughter bond is so much different to a father son one, perhaps it is because of ou.. read more
Fabian G. Franklin

3 Years Ago

God blessed me in my later years with another daughter. There's thirty years between her and her sis.. read more
Gee

3 Years Ago

What a great life story Fabian, you are a lucky family to have each other
To be honest this poem didn't make sense to me until I read Shelley's review. But now I understand the sentiment of the poem and the powerful pull it all drove for. tyfs

Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Thank you CVD
It makes total sense to me. A boy abandoned by his father. A mother's self worth shattered. Images in memories, seen in puddles. Very heartfelt.

Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Thanks Shelley. Being a father myself I find it difficult to understand how a parent could abandon t.. read more
Shelley Warner

3 Years Ago

I can imagine how hard it must be. It's wonderful that you broke the cycle.
The honesty here is scorching, which makes your scenario super relatable . . . the stuff most people don't acknowledge, skimming over the ugliness of basic everyday human motivations . . . which, to me, are half the beauty of writing, capturing these incongruous flaws as you've done so gently, yet starkly. Have a fun Halloween weekend! (((HUGS)))

Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Thanks Margie and for an good honest review, which we all hope to receive :))
I get a sense from this very moving piece your reflection is a reminder of a parent you hold dear to your heart because there is a resemblance there in the features. It is a very heartbreaking poem so wonderfully written. Thank you for sharing your work with us.

Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Tis the opposite Carlos, my old man cleared off leaving mum to raise an unruly brood of seven :)
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Carlos Lorenzo Estrada

3 Years Ago

I can sympathize my parents divorced when I was in 8th grade and as soon as that happened my mom cal.. read more
It makes perfect sense to me Gee as I know your diamond birthday is fast approaching. I also know about your absent father. And from experience and being a few years further down the line than you, I know that mirrors aren't friends. Yes, we can reflect on our childhood and remember incidents and things which we would rather not. It is such a pity that children are abandoned by parents. Each child in my opinion needs both their mother and father. There are some who are so bitter about their other half that they make it nigh on impossible for the children to have a relationship with the absent parent. We have that going on in our family at the moment. Lengthy court processes to jump through to ensure the child in question never thinks he was abandoned. We will never give up. Thank you for this poem and I am sorry for what happened to you Gee.

Chris

Posted 3 Years Ago


Gee

3 Years Ago

Thanks Christine, sorry to read of your infighting.
I think, in a strange way, I am a better .. read more
Chris Shaw

3 Years Ago

I am sure she has :)

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Added on October 30, 2021
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Tags: mirrors, Ageing, father, abandonment

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Milton keynes, United Kingdom



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