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See Me

See Me

A Poem by KaoticOrder

The struggle of being a insecure person in a relationship.

What if I changed myself for you?
Would you want me then?
What if I made myself look just the girls who catch your eye
Don't lie... I see how you look at them.

I see how you look at her face
Should I wear more make up?
Look at her body
Am I not fit enough?

I'll be whatever you want
Rearrange me until I'm pretty
I don't care if it hurts
I just want you to see me

Just mold me into what you want
and throw away what's ugly
Wipe me clean, create a new person
I'll become whatever you want me to be.

Because when you don't notice
I look at the mirror, wanting to hurl
Wanting to change everything about me
Maybe then you'd want me and stop looking at the other girls.

Don't you understand
When you look at those girls all you see is beauty
But when I look at them...
I see is everything that's not me.

© 2015 KaoticOrder

Author's Note

Feeling insecure as hell I guess. Low self esteem causes a lot of problems in a relationship. I suppose I get really upset when I see my boyfriend looking at other girls, even if they're only on a TV or in a movie... Then he lies about it...
He sees how beautiful these girls are, how "hot" he thinks they are. I look at them and I see everything that I'm not. Everything that I wish I was.
I hate myself sometimes and can't bare to look into a mirror.

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I liked the logic of the poem.
"Just mold me into what you want
and throw away what's ugly
Wipe me clean, create a new person
I'll become whatever you want me to be."
I have been telling people for 40years. Can't change someone. You got what you know and forced change will leave you alone wishing for the person they were. A powerful poem. Made me think tonight.

Posted 7 Years Ago


7 Years Ago

Thanks. thats true, a person can't change another, but insecurity can really tear a person down
Coyote Poetry

7 Years Ago

You are right and you are welcome.
Insecurity slashes at one's soul/These words bind what is no longer whole/Emotions raw, this piece beautifully written/Through these words we are smitten/

Thank you for sharing your work and I look forward to reading more of what you pour onto pages!

Posted 7 Years Ago


7 Years Ago

Thank you very much!!
don't know really know how to comment i'll make my best attempt
sorrows lament make a poem of love
who cares except we make comments about our feelings
that matters more so that the blood we shed the tears spent
all we want is to fly like birds to be one
one with the earth stars sun heaven sent
no regrets thats what i know of

I find music helps me alot, helps with alot of problems
and i want to say writing about your feelings is a gift your gift keep hold of that
much love and want to say what you wrote is from the heart it is the most important because it's real

well done 7755777/7755777

Posted 7 Years Ago


7 Years Ago

Music is extremely helpful for me as well. Sometimes playing chiller music can help distract my mind.. read more
You share your mind, heart and soul in this poem. In a very poetic way you share a story, which would hopefully relate with most of the women in the world. I have to be back to read more of your writing, interesting and amazing!

Posted 7 Years Ago


7 Years Ago

While that may be true, when you are insecure and in a relationship: You always think "maybe they wa.. read more
A. Amos

7 Years Ago

love is more than any attraction in this world my friend, when you love someone you can survive with.. read more

7 Years Ago

That is true.

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Added on April 15, 2015
Last Updated on April 15, 2015



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My name is Nerissa, but I go by Kaos on most writing sites. I am a twenty two year old aspiring writer and a stay at home Mother of a darling little angel named Sabrina. Began writing as dabbles an.. more..


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