IsolationA Poem by LindsayThey see you frown. They see you cry. They see you be silent. Isolation. They make judgements. Rude. Mean. Antisocial. They don’t talk to you. They don’t go out with
you. Is it because they don’t
know what to say? Is it because they don’t know
what to do? What they really don’t
know is why. Why you frown and cry. Why you sit in silence. Why you stand in isolation. An overwhelming fear. Passing through your head
over and over. As endless as waves
crashing on the shore And as timeless as time
itself. The fear that they don’t
like you. The person you are. The
person they see. Crushing your heart again
and again. The desperate need for
others to like you Because you don’t like
yourself. You are ripped out of
isolation by only this hatred. The sheer desire not to
be alone with THAT person. And because of all the
thoughts you have when you are. You become the people by
whom you surround yourself. So malleable because you
are barely a person. Barely your own person. Laugh to make others laugh. Dress nice so others like
what they see. Starve so you look skinny.
Not for you. But for
them. You are who you are for
others. Because it doesn’t matter
who you are for yourself. Darkness in the light.
Silence in the clamor. When there are people all
around, but you still feel alone. Why? Because you are
missing that person. THAT person. The person who is there
for you through good times and bad. The person who is with
you forever. No matter what. The person who is
supposed to love you the most. Yourself. You don’t know what isolation
is Until
not even YOU are there for YOU. © 2018 Lindsay |
StatsAuthorLindsayBethpage, NYAboutI recently started writing to help me externalize my experience with depression. It is something I really enjoy doing, and I would love to share it with others. more..Writing
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