When You LearnA Poem by LindsayWhen you learn that true
heartache Is not just a metaphor of
emotionality But rather an actual pain
Shooting through your
heart. And radiating through
your soul. A malfunctioning body Breaking down even more. You wonder how a person Who is already so broken Can hurt so much. When you learn the
meaning of emptiness. The TRUE meaning of
emptiness. You lay in the dark and
the darkness envelops you. You sit and be silent and
the silence overtakes you. An emptiness that that
you can feel as deep as the pit of your stomach And as superficially as
the nerves in your skin. When you learn the
meaning of sadness. A sadness that stays with
you no matter what. That holds you in its
grip. Strangles you. Suffocates
you. Making every breath a
struggle. An impossibility. When you learn the
meaning of loss. The people who once said
they loved you Who once said they cared Who were once there Are there no longer. Because it is too hard
for them to see you hurt. Or because they didn’t
care in the first place. And after learning about
heartache, emptiness, sadness, and loss You wonder about what you
didn’t learn. And if that can possibly
matter more. You didn’t learn about happiness,
fulfillment, vitality. You didn’t learn about who
you are. And why you are even
alive in the first place. So you live on In an endless eternity. Waiting for the end to
come. And you learn that it can
never come soon enough. © 2018 Lindsay |
StatsAuthorLindsayBethpage, NYAboutI recently started writing to help me externalize my experience with depression. It is something I really enjoy doing, and I would love to share it with others. more..Writing
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