Daddy

A poem I wrote a little while ago, when I was 13

You know I love you

Even when I'm shouting

Those cruel words to you

 

You're my daddy

I'm your daughter

Nothing can change that

 

I remember the first time

I had flipped out completely

I only knew the bad stories

 

You know

That cancer kills people

That no one comes out alive

 

That they only get it once

That they won't be saved

Of course I would believe that

 

I was young

I was naive

I was a fourth grader

 

Yeah

Four years ago and

We're still dealing with this crap

 

Daddy

Make it all go away

I can't stand it no more

 

It's not your fault Daddy

That I'm becoming forgetful

And my grades are slipping

 

Please don't feel bad

Knowing you are the reason

I stay up and cry at night

 

I'm a strong girl

I've handled worse situations...

But I can cry too, right?

 

I'll suck it up, okay?

Just for you though...

Because somebody has to

 

But please know

I never stop thinking

About you and everything you say

 

I remember last night

We just sat on my bed

Talking like there's no tomorrow

 

About when you were born

About my grand-father too

What the 1900's were like

 

The invention of radios

Those old time stars

All the things you've lived through

 

Hey Daddy?

Think we can do that again?

Forget about our troubles?

 

Just talk like nothing's wrong

Act like everything's normal

And just talk together?

 

I miss those days Daddy

I really want them back

I'd die to have them back

 

Give me a promise

That those days will come back

Before I grow older

 

Before I lose my imagination

And most of all

Before I lose you forever

 

Please Daddy?

That's all I ask for

The last thing I'll ever ask

 

Just...

I have no more words

How could this be true?

 

Cancer?

Again?

You don't deserve this...

 

I'm leaving now Daddy

I'm going back to my room

Retreating back into solitude

 

I'll be curled up on my bed

Crying my eyes out for you

In case you want to join me...

 

So we can talk like we used to...

Author's Note

Thanks for reading. It was just a way to get my words out when I needed to.

~N~

Reviews

[Vin]

I'm actually in tears from reading this D:
Cancer is one of the worst things anyone can be burdened with and it's unbearable. My aunt has had it for 7 years so I know the pain I feel from that but I couldn't possibly imagine how bad it would be if (God forbid) one of my parents were to get it. I'm so sorry for you and your dad :'{.
Oh btw, it was a truly amazig piece :) heart breaking and tragic but really great! The emotion was so raw that the reader feels what you must have felt when writing it, which in the end is what a poem should do. Very, very well done!

-Beth

[Dakota Jean]

Extremely powerful. I like how you wrote with a calm attitude through all of it given the harsh subject. And saying "daddy" instead of "dad" or "father" adds a childish glimmer and I love it. Keep up the good work x

[Misty Blue Eyes]

WOW just F*****G WOW this piece brought me to tears. im still fighting them back. love this

[MissVixen]

I was doing great until the end then the tears began to show up. This is a very emotional piece and im really glad you shared this on here.

It was a pleasure to read and it was so relatable since people know the feeling of loss or fear of losing a strong figure in your life and also getting mad at your parents.

I've lost 2 aunts to cancer and have an uncle with it right now. I feel for you and your dad and I wish the best to the both of you.

[Samantha]

Very beautiful and so sad. My eyes watered a lil bit. What an amazing piece of writing.

[Summer Blue]

Wow! Very emotional! It brought tears to my eyes and made me realize that this can happen to anyone... Also I have to thank you, because I was told about a month ago that I could possibly have a tumor on my lung that could be cancer, after reading this I can understand my childrens feelings and fears a lot better now...Thank you!!!

[Adelia Alighieri]

I can feel so much, it brought tears.
God bless you and your dad.

[emily joe]

I really like this. It's sad though. Nice flow, and good job capturing such a tough emotion.