Gods unwanted

To those. Those who see. Hear. Bleed and read the blood on the walls. The writing that drips and the water that flooded the terrain.

Funny. I thought I wanted to be an artist.

Now ?

Now I just want to make the worlds ears and eyes bleed. I want hearts souls and tainted smiles.

I'm toxic love. I'm a rock In a glove. I'm the one you seek.

I'm the one you hate. Hate to love. Love or hate me you'll hear me.

But f**k it I kicked that bucket. Said f**k it. She said hey you ! I said hey you ! She said come here let me suck it. I said I'm going to f**k that and that I did -

Now I'm holy unwanted trash. I'm tainted love.

You're not looking close enough.

If you look closer you see the code. I decoded it and re wrote it.

Called my future. While you were looking for it. I was it. You don't know it. I know it. We know it. They know it. She knows it. He knows it. But he doesn't , no not yet.

Not yet but you will.
Not yet but you will.
Now look up and read down.
Do that ten times till summer.

And now the story begins. And now we begin

See I'm listening to their pain. Writing my pain. Hoping you see it I see it you see it but they see it. We don't want to see it. No not yet I feel it. I want it. I don't no not yet

Unworthy I felt unworthy I feel , but I'll feel worthy soon enough. Soon enough I'll stop the shed of words of insecurity. Re read it and see God

I said I was it. I said I was it.
Why didn't you see it
Why didn't you see it.

Now gods unwanted child is on the forth life the next life the one with a wife dog a child a story so gory so haunted it's past - more words than a thought on a multiple processing process to process my metaphors analogies and apologies that I highly doubt I have.

How did I get here ?
I mean is this real ?
Did the Devils jump ?

Jump jump I jumped when Lupe said jump and I jumped -
I jumped
I jumped
Off my balcony
Off my ledge

Now my heart is breaking breaking breaking in two in two and in threes
Fourth time is a charm or a charm on my wrist to say hey look ! Look at what we got here and here it is my finger in her bum my tongue on her pink printed next to my blue print I printed the last page twice and ran a train on her twice -

Yum yum yum I love that yum yum bum -

And now we hit the third wall. Now don't fall behind.

Funny I got 4 stories hidden packaged up like a poem. But it's gods glory his story my game your riches but our triumph -

This is bigger then the art.
This is bigger than me.
This is bigger then you.
This is world war 3.

This is thinking the past was re written tossed in the trash next to the definition of future and dreams. This is lost and hopeless. This is wandering the dessert. This is mountains bleeding red wine.

This is a future to which I call
This is space
This is the devil in the red dress
This is duality
This is God vs the devil vs me myself and I
This is gods unwanted child

You know f**k it. I'll
Hit a fourth note and send you a love letter from my future to my past from the present

This is my future written in blood
This is a white flag
This is my rebirth
This is the fourth wall
The part where the audience hears my rage the pen on the page next to my dreams next to where my head lays

The bible tossed
This is gods unwanted children
This is the future