Part 2A Chapter by SwethaPART 2
MANGALORE&BANGALORE 2001-2006
"Sara, get up. You are getting late. Its already "Mmm, damn the vacation
went so quick. Coming Mom".
I was not a morning
person. I hated getting up early. Whole my vacation I never got up before
"Morning Mom, I m
ready. See you always get tensed. I am fully organised". "If you are really
organised, why did you shut your alarm and went to sleep again". "Oh come on Savita, stop
teasing my little girl now", said my father. "Satish, your little
girl is not very little now. She is now
into her graduation. Stop pampering her
now". "Oh Mom, akka is Dad's
favourite, how can't he take her side", said Suraj. "Enough Suraj, if I am
Dad's pet then you are also Mom's obedient pet, hehehe".
Mine is a short and sweet
family. My Dad worked as a bank manager,
very easy going man who had given full freedom to both me and my brother and
shares a friendly relationship with us. I
was more close to my Dad. My Mom used to
work as a teacher long back but later she resigned to look after us. She is bit strict and believes too much
freedom is also not that good and we should know our limits. My brother Suraj was in grade 10 who was very
good at studies.
"Hey Arpu, you are
looking good. All set for first day,
ya"? "Come on Sara, not as good
in your comparison. Now start your
scooty, we are already late". "Ya ya, starting. You
are telling as if the whole college will be waiting for us". "Who knows, they may
be. After all seniors can rag us
peacefully if we will be the last ones to enter the campus".
Arpu, Arpita is my best
friend since grade 1. They were also
very good neighbours and close family friends as well. But Arpita had opted for B.Com. Arpita is a good looking girl with cat eyes,
slim built, 5.5 tall and very beautiful smile with two dimples on her
cheek. Arpita had lot of boys crazy for
her in her 11th and 12th grade. Arpita was
still waiting for her Mr Right and believes one day she will have that special
someone who can drive her crazy unlike me who believed only in having fun and
there was nothing called love. But we two
were best of friends in thick and thin.
"Hold on girls, no need
to hurry. You just can't escape
us", said one of the senior in college blocking mine and Arpita's way. "Oh, I thought we are
running late", I said. "Well not really. You still have some time. So boys what task is for them". "Hey they are so pretty
and innocent, don't feel like ragging them, lol", said another senior. "Now come on, we can't
just let them go. We have to give them
some task". "Ok, so who will be
first". "I can do any task even
on behalf of my friend", I said. "Sara, shut up. Its our first day and they are our
seniors. Don't be overconfident",
whispered Arpita. "Well well, this girl
has some guts man, ok then lets start with you.
Can you see a boy in red shirt over there, you have to go to him and say
I love you and kiss him on his cheeks". "Hu
huhuuuuuuuuuuu", yelled everyone from the group. "Hey that's too much,
you can't ask a girl to go and kiss some stranger", yelled Arpita. "Well your friend said
that she can do any task, so what's the problem?" "Yes I can do it, there
is no big issue. Arpu don't worry, I
will be back", I said and moved towards the boy in red shirt.
All the seniors and other
boys and girls who were around us were now curious to know if I would really
kiss that boy and say I love you. They
were watching me move towards him.
I went to that boy in red
shirt. I was facing his back. I touched his shoulder to make him turn to me. As he turned to face me, I kissed him on his
cheeks and said "I love you". I
immediately turned around and started to walk away from him. That boy didn't realise what had just
happened. As I came back to the group,
all of them started to cheer me.
"Oh man, I must say you
are really some character. No one till
now had this much guts", said that senior. "Well, as I said I can
do any task", I said. "So on this account, we
will spare your friend. You both can go
now".
"Excuse me, hey you
listen, wait".
I heard some voice from the
crowd. I turned around and it was the
same boy whom I had kissed few moments back.
"Hey Sid, lucky
guy. How was the kiss man?", asked
one of the senior.
Sid, Siddharth, a second year
BBM student, one year senior to me.
Siddharth was a good looking guy with brownish eyes, 5.9 tall, medium
built, fair complexion and a dashing hunk.
He was honoured as best looking Mr Fresher last year. Many girls were mad after him. Just a smile from him would make all the
girls go crazy. But Siddharth was a
lover boy. He would love to flirt with
all girls making it clear that it is only fun and nothing serious.
"Oh so this was your prank. I was wondering why this girl had come and
kissed me". "We just thought to make
you lucky man". "Oh shut up, by the way,
Miss.......". "Sara, my name is Sara". "Ok Miss Sara, first
year?" "Yes" "You have lot of guts,
no one dared to accept this challenge till now". "Well I love challenges
that are tough". "Hmm, nice
confidence". "Thank you". "Well nothing personal,
this was all only for fun. Otherwise we
all are good seniors you see". "Ya I understand. So now if you excuse us, can we go to our
class? we are really late now". "Of course, please carry
on".
As I and Arpita turned to
leave,
"Just a second Miss
Sara", called Siddharth and stopped us.
He came close to me and whispered in my ears, "that was a lovely
kiss".
As we were far from the crowd and now that no one could
hear us, Arpita could no longer hold her frustration and anger. She was furious with what I did just few moments
back. Arpita never liked such challenges
which could get physical. I knew that
now I have to face Arpita's anger who could blast any moment.
"Sara, what was
that. Have you lost it. How can you go and kiss someone just like
that and also say I love you"?, yelled Arpita who was very upset with me. "Oh come on Arpu, they
give me some challenge and I don't accept it.
How is this possible. You know I
love such challenges", I said calmly. "But still, what if he
was not nice or some kind of jerk"? "Oh please, you are
telling as if I will be going to have some kind of relationship with him. It was just for that moment. I don't even remember his name now". "You are
impossible. I would have never done
that". "Ya ya I know, you have
preserved your first kiss to your Mr Right.
But dear, you should enjoy your life first. You have to meet your Mr Right some day. Why waste your fun now". "I know I can't win on
this with you. But Sara the day when you
deeply love someone, you will understand my feelings and thoughts. I am sure you will have your that special
someone". "Ok ok, lets see. But I m not gonna wait like you. When it happens it happens. I seriously don't understand this concept of
love and all. There are so many handsome
hunks around, how can you just settle with one.
I mean you have to one day after marriage and all but till then just
enjoy baby". "Hmm, ok you win. The day when you fall for someone, that day I
will ask you. Till then no more
discussions on this". "Let's see, the day I
commit for someone deeply you will be the first one to know. Now smile dear".
Me and Arpita could have long
discussions on this. But I would never
give up and at last Arpita closes the topic.
We were now well settled in our new class. It was lunch time. My act had become viral. I had become famous on my first day in no
time. There were all sort of rumours
around. Boys admiring my guts while
girls feeling not so good about me. But I
never cared for such rumours.
"Arpu, see that table is
clear. Come lets sit there", I said
during our lunch time. "Ya ok. What have you got for lunch"? "Vegetable pulav. What about you"? "Your favourite, chicken
biryani". "Yum, then you can have
my lunch".
As we were about to start, "Hey, how are you
both? Nice start in the morning
huh", said one of the boy. "Do we know you"?
asked Arpita. "Not really but we are
in same class. I am Nishanth and these
are my friends, Pavan and Seema", he introduced his friends. "Hi, I m Sara and she is
Arpita. Were you all in the same college
in the past"? "Yes, many of our other
friends, went to different colleges. But
we three opted for this one. If you don't mind, can we join you", asked
Nishanth. "Ya sure, please. We would be happy afterall we also don't know
anyone here", I said. "Thanks girls",
said all the three at once.
Nishanth, a good looking guy,
5.9 tall, medium built, fair complexion and black eyes. He was average at his studies but was very
much interested in sports. He loved to
hangout with friends, partying, doing crazy things. He had few relations in the past but nothing
serious. He had one big sister who was into
IT. His Dad was into construction
business and his Mom was a government employee.
His parents wanted him also to become an engineer but Nishanth was never
interested. So they let him choose his
own career.
Pavan, an average looking
guy, 5.8 tall, thin built, dark complexion and black eyes. His Dad was a bus driver and Mom a
housewife. He was very good at studies
and wanted to study engineering but due to his family's financial condition, he
chose to do a normal degree. He was the
only son to his parents and wanted to study hard and get some good job so that
he can look after his parents well. He was
not interested in parties and all but loved spending time with his only friends
Nishanth and Seema.
Seema, a very good looking
girl, 5.4 tall, blueish eyes, fair complexion and slim built. Her Dad was into fishing business and Mom a
housewife. She had one elder brother who
helped in their Dad's business. She was good
at her studies but not very much interested.
She used to come to college just to have a degree. She believed in love but one with good bank
balance. But she was very good at heart
and always helped those in need.
Me, Arpita, Nishanth, Pavan
and Seema, all of us got along very well and soon we had formed our own
group. All with different backgrounds
and different thoughts but still loved to be together. We were soon named as a cool group and the
main reason was my kiss part. Since all
were good at studies, lecturers were also happy and they didn't bother what we did
in our personal lives.
"Hey, did you guys see
the notice board. They are having
freshers programme next week", said excited Seema. "What's the big deal
with it"?, asked an uninterested Pavan. "Guys, they will be
having some competitions and at the end of it they will declare Mr. Fresher and
Ms. Fresher. Isn't it amazing". "If I m not wrong, you
at any cost want to win this right"?, asked Arpita. "Yes ofcourse, I mean I
surely want to be a part of it". "Don't worry Seema, I m
sure you will win this. Afterall you
have the most beautiful eyes here", I said. "Oh come on I don't mind
if you or Arpita wins, you both are my best friends. But yes would feel bit bad if some other girl
wins". "Ok ok, so you think we
should take part in this"?, asked Nishanth. "Yes of course. There are very limited positions and we have
to give our names ASAP". "Ok then come on, lets
do it", said Nishanth. "You guys carry on, I
don't want to take part", said Pavan.
We tried to convince Pavan
but he was not interested and also not very confident. Even Arpita wanted to back out but as usual I
didn't let her do it.
"Hello, we want to
register for the freshers competition", said Nishanth to one of the senior
who was taking all the names. "Well there are only two
spots left now. You guys are bit
late". "Oh can't you adjust for
another two please", begged Seema. "Sorry, its full. I can take only two names now but later if
there are any cancellations I can let you know". "No issues Seema, you
and Nishanth go for it. Its not a big
deal". "But.........",
said Seema. "Oh come on Seema, don't
worry. Its you, me or Arpita, its same.
Just give your name". "But I don't want to
look selfish", said Seema. "You won't, I anyhow
didn't wanted to take part and for Sara its not that big deal. So just go for it and register your
name", said Arpita. "Yes Seema, now do it
soon or these two spots also will be gone", said Nishanth. "Have you guys decided
or should I move on to other people waiting behind you", said the senior
guy. "No no, we are
done. Its we both, Nishanth and Seema
from first year BBM", said Nishanth and registered their names.
"Well I can get one more
spot if you guys like", we heard someone telling as we were about to
leave.
As we turned to see, it was
Siddharth, the same guy whom I had kissed on my first day. He came close to us and said again,
"I said I can get one
more spot if you like but on one condition". "And what is that
condition"?, asked Seema. "Well that spot should
be filled by you Miss Sara".
We all were amazed to hear
this but we knew the reason behind this. "Oh yeah, why do you
want me to do this"?, I asked. "Because you said the
other day that you love challenges then why not this"? "I do but I don't need
any special influence for this. So no
thanks, I m fine".
As we were about to leave, "Oh so now you are
scared to come in front of so many people I guess. What happened to all your guts"?, teased
Siddharth. "I am not scared of
anything or anyone Mr Sid. Ok I will do
it but if I win this competition, you have to do whatever I say. Is this fine with you"? "Fair enough, even I
love challenges especially from someone as pretty as you Miss Sara and if you
lose, you have to accept my task". "I m in for it Mr.
Sid".
I gave my name. Before we could leave, Siddharth once again
came close to me and whispered in my ear "can't wait for another lovely
kiss" and he was gone.
Mr Fresher and Ms Fresher
competition was done. I won Ms Fresher
and another guy named Amar from BSc won Mr Fresher. I couldn't wait to assign a task to Sid.
"Come on Mr Sid, what
are you waiting for? Go for it", I said after winning the Ms Fresher
tag. As per the bet Sid had to do
whatever I said. I had asked Sid to go
on mic and say "I am really very sorry for those who were ragged this year
by me or by friends. Please forgive
me".
This was a huge challenge for
any senior to ask sorry that too on mic to all students. I had very cleverly thought about this. Me and Seema were close contenders. But Seema had willingly lost to me so that I can
have a go with Sid but I never knew about it though. Now all were waiting to see if Sid would
really say it.
"I guess he is bit in a
tension now, hehehe", said Seema. "Sara, you should have
not done this, he might have a take on you with this later", whispered
Arpita. "Don't worry Arpu, this
is all just for fun. I am making my
college life memorable", I consoled her. "We all are waiting Mr
Sid, you are wasting our time", said Sara. "This is ridiculous, you
can't challenge any senior like this", said one of the senior from the
group. "This was prefixed. But now if he is so ashamed he can back
out", I said. "Sid is not a guy to
back out", said another senior girl. "Then why are you guys
worried. Let him do it", said
Nishanth.
"Boys and Girls, I Sid
from second year BBM here by ask apology to all those who were ragged by me or
by my friends this year. Please forgive
me", echoed Sid's voice through all the speakers making it loud and clear
to whole college.
All his friends, freshers,
staff attendants, lecturers and even the principal were amazed to hear
this. They were more amazed to come this
from Sid who was known to his pranks and an ex Mr Fresher. Sid who never left any opportunity to pull
anyone's leg. Sid was himself shocked to
have a competitor to his level and more over a girl.
"Hoo hoo, you rock Sid
as always", cheered one of the senior girl from the crowd. "He is our hero, he can
never back out from any task", said others.
"So Ms Sara, I did
it", said Sid. "Great, I am impressed
to see that you can also accomplish any task". "Same like you Ms
Sara". "Cool Mr Sid. Have a good day". "You too Ms Sara,
bye".
I was hugely impressed. For the first time I was actually getting attracted
to someone so soon. I never had any
relationships in the past but I used to flirt with boys just for a day or two
and then forget. This was something
different.
Three months had past and
shortly we were to face our mid term exams.
Everyone were busy with their preparations. I never took these examinations
seriously. I used to study just two days
before the exams but still I managed to get good scores. All my friends used to say I am blessed as
even without thorough preparation, I could score well.
"Hey, all alone today?
Where is your gang"?, asked Sid who came seeing me alone. "All are busy preparing
for the mid term". "It means that you have
already well prepared then". "No it means I don't
believe in studying so soon, I prepare only two or three days before the
exam". "Hmm very intelligent
though". "Sort of. How come you are here"? "Well even I don't
believe in studying but the difference is I don't believe in studying at all,
lol". "Wow, then how will you
score in the exams"? "I just need passing
marks which I manage to get. I am more
than happy". "Cool. You live in hostel right? Where is your hometown then"? "You seem to know much
about me. Stalking me"? "Ha ha, don't even dream
that. I don't stalk anyone". "Hmm good for you, well I
am from Coorg. Have you ever been
there"? "Cool, no never. But I have heard its a nice place". "I can take you sometime
if you wish to". "Why not, I love going
to different places".
We both spent sometime
talking to each other. We talked about our
likes and dislikes. We shared our dreams,
the craziest things we had done in our lives and most of the things which I had
shared only with my dear ones. We slowly
started to realise we have many things in common. We were so alike.
"Ok I have to go now,
its lunch time and my friends will be waiting for me in the canteen", I
said. "Sure. It was nice talking to you. You are not as stubborn as you pretend to
look like". "Thanks, you are also
very down to earth. I too had a good
time". "Well then we can have
more good times like this. How about a
lunch this Saturday"? "Are you asking me for a
date or this is just a normal lunch"? "You can take it either
way Ms Sara". "Ok Mr Sid, I will see
you at "Cool, we will go
together from college or would you like me to pick you up from somewhere
else"? "From college, I don't
believe in hiding these things". "Super, then we will go
together from here". "Sure, where will you
take me"? "That's a surprise, you
have to wait". "Ok then, see you on
Saturday". "So will this be our
first date"? "You can take it either
way Mr Sid, hehe". "Smart, I am taking it
as our first date then Ms Sara.
Bye".
I was excited to go on my first
date. I had shared this with my friends. They were all like, "really, how did
this happen"?
"I still don't believe
that Sid, "the Sid" has asked you out for lunch", said Seema
excitedly. "What is so unusual
about it Seema? Sara is also no less
compared to him", said Arpita for whom I always came first. "Ya I know but still,
all girls go crazy over him and he has asked Sara out. Its so special". "Oh stop it Seema, what
is so special about him? Even I am also
good looking in his comparison. You
girls are just crazy", said Nishanth. "Nishu, you are just
jealous now. I mean you are also
handsome but you know there is something in him". "You are over reacting
now Seema. I guess you have fallen for
him", said Pavan. "Well would have but now
since he is more interested in Sara, I can back out you see", giggled
Seema. "Aww, that's so sweet of
you Seema", said Arpita. "You girls are just
crazy. We guys can never understand
you", said Nishanth. "That's true, you can
never understand us", said Seema. "Oh stop it you
guys. As Arpu said there is no big deal
in him asking me out. I mean he is a
sensible guy with whom I love talking to that's it", I said. "Ya ya we understand
that", all of them said together and had a nice laugh.
I said there is no big deal
but deep inside I was super happy that he had asked me out.
Finally it was Saturday and I
had butterflies in my stomach as it was my first date. I was not nervous but it was some strange
feeling.
"Have fun Sara, its your
first date", said Arpita. "Ya make most of it and
promise us that you will share everything later", said Seema. "Why do you girls want
to know all the details"? asked Nishanth. "We are like this only
Nishu. You don't listen if you don't
want to. No one is forcing you",
gave back Seema. "Oh stop it you both
now. I still wonder how you guys became
friends. Half of the time you will be
quarrelling", I said. "Don't worry about them
Sara, they are like this only but at the end all good. After all we are best of friends", said
Pavan.
I bid good byes to my friends
and went near college entrance where Sid was waiting for me on his bike.
"Hey, am I late"?
asked Sara. "No you are on time, I
came bit early". "Oh you are so eager to
go out with me huh"? "What to do, you are
that pretty"? "You guys always go for
looks right"? "Well that's what
visible at first, but hey you are different". "Oh really, I believe
you, so shall we go"? "Look who is eager now,
hehe. Come and sit". "Ya ya, I am damn
hungry".
We were gone. Many girls and Sid's friends especially girls
were confused to see us together. That
too after that mic announcement. No one
knew how close we had come in these few months.
Let alone others, I was myself never knew that we had actually come very
close to each other. I was very excited
to go on this first ever lunch date. Its
not that this was something new but still I felt something special.
"We are driving for
quite sometime now. Where are we
going"? I asked. "Have patience Ms Sara
and don't worry I am not kidnapping you". "Very funny but come on
now, I am hungry". "We are just there. See we reached". "Where is this, I can't
see any restaurant here". "Just wait and
watch".
Sid had bought me to a
secluded place surrounded by trees. It
was more like a forest. He then took me bit
further where he had arranged a table for two with food and drinks of my choice. I was speechless.
"Oh my gosh, when did
you arrange this? I am so......" "Impressed"? "That's a small word,
its much beyond that". "So shall we Ms
Sara"? "Sure Mr Sid". "Come have your
seat. What drink would you like? I have both soft drinks as well as hot
drinks". "Wine is fine with
me".
I was happy to see Sid had
arranged so much for me. I didn't know
how to react on that occasion. But I wanted
some clarifications which I hesitated to ask.
I was not sure if I should ask but I wanted to be sure. I wanted to make some things clear. No one had ever done something so special for
me. I didn't wanted to get carried away
with it. I thought I will ask once we were
done with our lunch.
"Sid, can I ask you
something"? "I know what you want to
ask. You want to know why I did all this
right"? "Yep because I know that
you are a play boy and also I don't want to get into any serious
relationship. I am not ready for
it". "You made it easier
Sara. Even I don't want anything
serious. I can't commit to any one
girl. At least not till I get
married. But I did all this because I
felt something special about you the day you kissed me. And trust me I have never done something like
this before to any other girl". "So what will we call
our relationship then"? "Why is it so necessary
to give name to any relationship? Just let it be and when others see us
together, they themselves will give some name to this". "That means we are
together but nothing serious right"? "Right, lets see how it
goes. We will go as it takes us. No commitments, no promises but still together. What say", winked Sid. "I am cool with it Mr
Sid". "That's great Ms
Sara".
We both were happy to have
this open relationship which no one could ever understand. How could others understand when we ourselves
were not sure about it. But I felt
something for him. I didn't know what or
how I felt but I didn't really care about it.
We both were not ready for any serious commitments.
We both came close to each
other. Being physical with someone was
not a new thing to both of us. Sid was a
play boy and was involved physically with many girls. I also had kissed few boys in the past though
nothing beyond that. But I could feel
this touch was something special, something new.
Sid took my hand and pulled me
towards him. I tried to move away from
him. He hugged me from behind. He lightly kissed me on my shoulders. I could sense some strange feeling inside me. He then turned me around to face him. I had closed my eyes. Sid then kissed on my forehead. He then kissed my cheeks. We came closer and closer finally our lips
just about to touch. I had never kissed
any boy on lips. I put my arms around Sid. He came still closer and he kissed my upper
lip and then my lower lip. We were
deeply involved and totally lost in our own magical world. A world I had always imagined but never got
to feel. This was the first time I got
this physical. I could not explain that
feeling.
---------------------------- "Hello"? I answered
my phone still half asleep. "Good morning baby,
still sleeping"?, it was Sid. "Good morning, how come
so early"? "Its already "Oh gosh, how come mom
didn't wake me up then". "She might have forgot
that college reopens today". "May be, ok will get
ready and see you in college, bye". "Bye dear, take care and
come soon".
One year of college had
passed so quickly. I was already in
second year now. After that day Sid and
my relation was public. All considered us
as a couple which was true to some extent.
We had started dating each other.
Always together be it in college or any party. We enjoyed each other's company. Some of his friends who knew him were clear
that our relationship was another passing affair. But I had not told my friends about our open
relationship.
If I had told Arpita about
our mutual understanding of our relationship she would have never wanted me to
proceed. I had only said Sid had proposed
me and I have accepted for time being and will see how it goes. But seeing our closeness Arpita along with my
other friends had thought we were crazy for each other. We were crazy but we both didn't wanted any
serious relationship. We both wanted to
have just fun. We were still young and
love, serious commitment, marriage and all was a far thing for us. We both were not that mature enough. The only condition was we were not supposed
to date any other person till we were in college. Once college was done, we were free from all
bonding.
"Mom, I am getting
late. Where's my breakfast"? I was
on top of my voice. "Where are you going
today? You didn't tell anything",
asked my Mom. "Mom, my college reopens
today. How come you forgot? You didn't
wake me up as well". "Does your college opens
on Sunday"? "What!!!" "Yes its Sunday
today". "But he, oh my god, he
fooled me"!!! "Who fooled you"? "Ahh, its one of my
friend. He called while I was sleeping
and said..........." "Oh, that's why you got
up so early. Otherwise you won't even
get up before 10", my Mom was not able to control her laugh. "Oh my poor sis, someone
spoilt your sleep", my brother started teasing me. "Are you going anywhere
Sara"?, asked my Dad who just came in from his morning walk. "Yes she was going to
college thinking its Monday", said my Mom who was still laughing. "Yes Dad, some friend of
hers had played a prank on her and she believed it", said my brother Suraj
who was very happy to see my plight. "Oh Sara, don't
worry. Next time you can do something
like that", said my Dad.
All of them started teasing
me. I couldn't believe Sid had played a
prank on me and I without thinking got fooled by him.
"Hello"? Sid
answered my call. "Sid how could you do
this, you fooled me". "Hehe, just trying to
remind you something". "What"? "You still don't
remember"? "No I still don't
remember and now I don't have enough patience to remember anything as
well". "Its ok, call me when
you remember. I will be waiting for your
call". "But Sid........",
he had already disconnected.
I was trying hard to
remember. I went to check the calendar
to see the date. It was 1st of June and
it suddenly stuck me it was Sid's birthday.
How could I have forgot his birthday.
It was his first birthday after we started dating. I had to do something special for him now but
didn't know what to do. After thinking
for sometime, I finally came out with a plan.
I immediately called him, "Hello"? "I still can't remember
anything but anyways I want to meet you". "Then why do you want to
meet if you still can't remember". "Its because you have
already made me get ready and I don't want it to go waste. Come to our usual spot in about three
hours". "Three hours, but you
said you are ready". "Yes but I have some
work. I will finish and will meet you in
three hours".
I had planned for a perfect
lunch. Sid loved all chicken
dishes. So I prepared some of his
favourite food. My Mom started
questioning me but somehow I convinced her saying me, Arpita and other friends
are planning for lunch together and each one will be cooking something. I felt very bad at times when I had to lie to
my Mom but everything could not be shared with parents and if I told my Mom
that I was cooking for my boy friend's birthday I would have had it.
I was fond of cooking but my
Mom never used to allow me on regular basis.
But since it was some special occasion, she didn't stop me. I was happy to cook especially for Sid. I had to make up for my forgetfulness. I had not bought a gift as well. But he didn't like accepting gifts. He used to say "buy me a gift only when
you start to earn, not from your parent's money". So I made a handmade card for him which he
couldn't refuse. I was done with my
cooking and everything looked perfect. I
had to reach before him so that I could make some arrangements.
I called Arpita and explained
her everything about my plan. I also
asked her to inform Nishu, Pavan and Seema as well. I wanted to play safe as I had lied to my Mom
about having lunch with my friends. I
was all done. I packed up everything
very carefully. I hoped Sid would like
whatever little I did for him and forgive me for forgetting his birthday. I had planned something different for his
birthday but as they say "something is better than nothing".
"Hey, you came
early"? Sid asked me seeing me waiting for him. "Not really, you are bit
late". "Just 5 min late. So why you wanted to meet"? "Why, should there be a
reason to meet you"? "Not like that, anyways
tell me".
I took him to the place
closing his eyes where I had arranged his birthday cake and all the food that I
had prepared for him. I then opened his
eyes and said, "Happy birthday Sid".
He was surprised to see all
my arrangements. "You remembered! Oh so
you were pretending huh? Thank you so much Sara". "I remembered after your
call but then I wanted to surprise you.
I am sorry to forget Sid". "Its ok baby. You have anyhow compensated by this wonderful
surprise". "So, cut the cake
now". He cut the cake and I was
singing birthday greetings for him. "Wow this cake is
yummy. Where did you get it from"? "You really think its
nice"? "Of course, it's very
nice. It tastes like homemade and
fresh". "You are right. I prepared it for you along with other
food". "Aww Sara, you are a
sweetheart but you didn't had to take so much pain". "No issues Sid and after
all it was for you. So no big
deal".
We had lunch following cake
cutting. Luckily Sid liked whatever I
had cooked. I then gave him his birthday
card with few wordings. I had tried to
be poetic but I was very bad at it. He
knew it was funny but didn't say anything.
"You made my birthday
special Sara". "I am glad you liked
it". "We are just having a
passing affair then why did you had to do so many things". "This is nothing in your
comparison Sid and more over is there any rule that we should not do special
things in a passing affair". "But Sara......" "And if so then why you
had to do all that you did for my birthday".
Sid had come to my home at
sharp
We had spent the whole night
together talking and talking. We didn't
get naughty though. I was not ready for
any such thing and he always respected my decision and said "I won't force
you for anything Sara and I am with you because I like your company". He was perfect for me.
"How did the birthday
party went? I know its bit late to ask this now", Seema asked me after one
week of college. She had missed her
first week because of some wedding in her family. "It was good. I had prepared some food and he liked
it". "You both make a great
couple, hope everything goes well between you", said Arpita. "Let's see. Why is it taking Nishu and Pavan so long to
get food from the canteen"? "May be they found some girls
to stalk", giggled Seema.
One week of the college was
gone. We had planned to rag some juniors
on the first day but somehow didn't feel like doing it. Many were innocent looking girls. Nishanth had managed to flirt with some girls
though. First year he had been a good
boy but now there was no stopping for him.
He was one year senior now.
"Hey Sara, you have to
watch that. Your Sid is ragging some
girl over there", said Nishanth after coming back from canteen. "Come on Nishu, he rags
some or the other girl. What's the big
deal in it", I said. "But that girl is super
hot dear. First year student and late
admission. She also lives in hostel". "Never mind. I don't bother about these petty things. Its his last year, let him have some
fun".
But somewhere I felt insecure
for the first time. We were not at all
serious for each other but I couldn't realise why I felt jealous that day.
"You are here, I was
searching for you everywhere", said Sid finding me in the college garden
where I was sitting alone and reading some book. "Why what
happened"? "Its college fest next
month. Every time our college was going
to other colleges but this time other colleges are coming to our college". "So....."? "What so, aren't you
excited to take part in this"? "Right now I want to
focus on exams which is next week". "Sara, is everything
ok"? "Yes, why"? "You are studying before
a week. You always study at the end
moment right"? "Ya but this time I
don't have proper notes as well.
So.....". "Anyways there will be
fashion parade during that fest and you will be walking with me. I have already registered our names". "But Sid, how could you
just register without asking me"? "Because I know you
won't say no. We make a good pair and
everyone would be willing to see us together". "I know but still you
should have asked me". "Why are you getting so
irritated? This is not the first time I
did something on your behalf".
He was right. It was not the first time. I was getting irritated without any
matter. Something was changing inside me
and frustrating thing was I was not able to make out what it was.
"Hello"? Sid
answered my call. "Still angry with
me"? "I am not but just
confused about your behaviour".
After my weird behaviour the
other day we had not really talked to each other. Both got busy with exams and then during mid
term vacation after exams Sid went to his hometown and I had went on family
vacation to one of my cousin's place to
"I am sorry Sid. I didn't know what happened to me that
day". "Its ok, you are coming
to college right". "Yes will be there in
another 20 min". "Ok see you soon, take
care".
I and Arpita reached college
where Seema, Nishanth and Pavan were waiting for us. "Hey, how was your
vacation Arpu and Sara"?, Seema asked us. "I had been to my
granny's place. Nothing special
though", said Arpita. "I had went to
Pavan was just at home. Nishanth was busy partying and hanging out
with his new girl friend which was only for time pass. He was not at all serious about her nor she
was about him. Seema's cousins had come
over and she was busy showing them around.
My mind was thinking about Sid and eyes looking for him.
"Hi Sid", Seema
waved to him who was coming near us. "Hey beautiful how are
you", Sid always greeted all the girls whom he knew with some names. "Very well. How have you been? Always busy with
Sara. Spend some time with her friends
also", Seema always pulled his leg. "What to do, she has
managed me to get glued to her very well you see", giggled Sid. "Very funny Sid", I
said. "Hey Arpita, Nishanth
and Pavan. How have you been all"?
asked Sid. "All good man. What special going on for fest"?, asked
Nishanth. "Came here just to talk
about that but its related to Sara", Sid said. "Obviously it would be
related to Sara, we are not that dumb Sid", gave back Arpita. "I know my dear. So if you excuse us can I have a word with
Sara"? "Why if its related to
fest you can chat in front of us also", said Pavan. "Ya but you know after
that it can get bit personal my dearies". "Ok ok, we spare
you. She is all yours".
They all left leaving me
alone with Sid. Sid can sometimes get
really very romantic. He could make you
feel very special at times and at the same time he can get very busy and
totally forget that you ever exist. If
he gets upset he can totally detach himself from everyone but then again he
could make up for his act in very special way.
He was some character.
"I told them that I will
first confirm with you for the fashion show", Sid said making me still
feel bad. "I said I am sorry
Sid. Please don't do this". "But you had said that I
should have asked you". "I don't know in what
mood I was the other day, can't you forget that". "Did it take you so many
days to call me"? "You also never
called". "Its because it was you
who behaved weirdly". "Ok now I said I am
sorry. What else you want me to
do"? I was getting bit impatient. "I can forgive you on
one condition". "What's that"? "Give me a cute smile
with a sweet kiss", he winked at me.
I smiled at him and kissed
him. "See now I forgot
everything", he said. "You will never
change". "Do you want me to
change, I thought you like me the way I am". "Yes yes, anyways, so
you have not cancelled my name right"? "No way baby, you will
be my partner always. If not with you
then not with anyone else". "My god you are getting
very romantic now". "Just got away with your
kiss you see. Got it after a long time
now", he winked again. "You are impossible
Sid". "Promise me you will not
behave in this strange way again. It
doesn't suit you". "Promise".
I promised to myself that I
would never act the way I did anymore.
Sid was right it didn't suit me.
He always liked the crazy side of mine.
He liked the way I used to get drunk and talk all nonsense. He liked the fact that I was not over
sentimental or emotional. He liked that
I too didn't believe in emotional attachments.
He never told me the reason for his detachment from all the
relationships and I also never cared to ask him.
Days were passing and soon it
was December. 27th of December, my
birthday and it came in midst of our Christmas vacation. My friends were all planning for a
I also wanted to confirm with
Sid about this plans. We were always
together on our birthdays but if I go to
"What are you doing for
Christmas vacation"? I asked Sid. "Hmm not sure yet. All my friends want to come to Coorg. So might plan a small trip with them". "Oh, ok". "What are you
doing"? "We are planning for "We in the sense, family
or friends"? "Friends, yet to ask
Mom. Not sure if she would allow". "Hmm, "Is it fine if I
go". "Of course dear. If you ask me, you should go. These days don't come again and again. You should make most of it". "But Sid, I was thinking
if you also could come to "Sara you know I can't
come with your friends. You all are my
juniors and it doesn't look good you see". "But there is no rule
that a senior can't come with junior". "I know there is no rule
but its something I don't like. And you
have never forced me for such trips, so why now"? "Its just........anyways
leave it. Its ok. You enjoy your Coorg trip". "I am sorry Sara but you
can join with us for Coorg if you want to". "No I can't ditch my
friends".
He didn't remember my
birthday and I also didn't tell him anything.
I had promised to myself that I would not act stupid this time.
"Please Aunty its only
three days. Please send her na",
pleaded Seema with my Mom. Seema,
Arpita, Nishanth and Pavan all had come to convince my Mom. "But you all will be by
yourselves. It's so dangerous",
said my Mom. "No Aunty my Dad has
booked decent hotel rooms for us. We
girls and boys will be in two different rooms". "But still, I have never
sent her to such trips where there is no supervision by elders". "We will be fine Aunty
and more over I have been to "Yes Aunty it will be so
fun. We want to celebrate Sara's
birthday there. My parents have also
agreed", said Arpita. "But.......", my
Mom still had second thoughts. "Its ok Savitha, send
her. There is always a first time to
everything. Let her enjoy with her
friends. I trust my daughter, afterall
they are not lying to us", said my Dad. "Thank you so much
Uncle. Please say yes na Aunty",
Seema again pleaded. "Ok but you have to
promise that you will make her call home all the three days at least
once", said my Mom and gave a green signal. "Sure sure Aunty. Will definitely do. Thank you so much", said Seema. "Yes Aunty, thanks a
lot", they all said together.
That was easy. I thought my Mom would never agree. May be my Mom is not as strict as she pretend
to look like. We all were happy. I had put aside the thoughts of Sid from my
mind and was happy to go on my first outdoor trip with my friends.
"Yes Mom, we reached
safely without any problem. We checked
into hotel also, don't worry", I was telling my Mom over the phone after
reaching "Ok but do take care and
call me daily", said my Mom. "Ya sure Mom. Pass the message to Dad also". "Ok I will let him know
once he is back from work. Take
care". "Ok Mom, bye".
I was super excited on my
first ever trip like this with my friends.
The next day was my birthday and we were busy planning about all the
activities we would be doing on this trip.
All had different options. If one
wanted to go to beach first, the other suggested something else. For Pavan also it was his first outdoor
trip. He had hesitated to come at first
because of all the money issue. But we
managed him to convince and told not to worry anything about the money. He didn't liked us spending for his expenses
but since it was my birthday he agreed telling that this would be the last
time.
After having our lunch and
resting for a while we decided we would go to beachside and then go to sunset
point later.
"Wow, what a beautiful
view"? I said looking at the sunset. "Yes indeed its so very
nice", said Arpita and Seema. "I have seen so many
times but still feels so good whenever I come here", said Nishanth. "Thank you guys to
brining me here, its so wonderful", said Pavan.
We stayed there for sometime,
clicked some pics and then decided to go to some pub for drinks and then
dinner. They were all whispering among
themselves and Nishanth was continuously on phone with someone. I could make out they were planning my
birthday but I was not sure what they were going to do.
"Come on guys, is it
compulsory to be a surprise. I know you
will be doing something for my birthday.
Tell me na". "Sara, have
patience. Waiting makes everything
special you see", said Seema. "Yes Sara, have your
dinner first. Another 2 hours and you
will get to know the surprise", said Arpita. "Do you want to talk to
Sid"?, asked Nishanth. "No, he will be busy
with his friends in Coorg. I don't think
he remembers my birthday". "Call him and remind
him, the way he reminded you", said Pavan. "No way, I am not going
to do that. You guys are with me, that's
more than enough for me". "Aww, that's so sweet of
you Sara. Don't worry we will make it
special, you will never forget", said Arpita.
After partying and having
dinner, by the time we came back to our hotel it was
Sharp at 12, I could feel someone near my ear saying,
"Happy birthday baby". I opened my eyes and to my
surprise it was Sid from nowhere. I
could not believe my eyes and thought to myself am I dreaming. "Happy birthday my
dear", he said again and hugged me and kissed me on my cheeks. "Sid.....,you......
how........ I mean......", I was not finding any words. Before I could continue...... "Surprise....... Happy
birthday Sara", yelled all my friends at once.
So this was the surprise they
were planning. Sid had never forgot my
birthday. He was just pretending and he
had asked all of them to plan this
I then cut my birthday cake
at rooftop of the hotel where Sid had arranged everything. We partied like anything. Sid never gave me any gift as he didn't
believe in such things. My friends were
right, this birthday indeed was very special and I would never forget. Sid had made it really very special.
"So what are you planning
for this valentine's day Sara"? asked Seema. "Don't know there is
still 2 weeks for that". "Hmm I wish I had
someone at least on that day", Seema said. "Why only for that
day"? asked Arpita. "So at least for one day
I could feel special". "You had one guy from
other department who was after you right"?, I asked Seema. "Oh that one, he was
such a bore. None of our likes
matched. He always used to talk about
after marriage things, how a husband and wife should be, blah blah". "Hehe, he was so madly in
love with you", said Arpita. "Oh come on, he still
don't know his future and wants to plan about marriage and all. I want someone with good bank balance and
well settled guy. These all I feel like
kids you see". "Hmm, that's bit tough
and that too within two weeks", I said laughing. "I know and hey I don't
want to get involved with anyone seriously.
I don't like all that drama of miss you, love you". "So you think Sara's is
all drama", asked Arpita. "Sara is different. She is not too melodramatic. I have never seen her depressed if some day
she didn't get to see her Sid". "Ya ya, that's
true. I am not too melodramatic". "Where's Nishu and
Pavan? It's almost bell time now",
asked Arpita. "Pavan is sick and will
not be in today. No idea about
Nishu", said Seema.
And it was 14th Feb,
valentine's day. Most awaited day for
all the love birds. I was not crazy
about this day but somehow this time I felt something special about it. Sid had asked me to bunk the class after
lunch and meet him near the college gate.
He said he had planned something and we would be spending some quality
time together. He also said he will be
taking me to some new place and will be doing something new about which I had
no idea.
Nishanth had bunked for the
day and was going to spend some time with his girl friend. Arpita and Pavan attended the class
sincerely. Pavan was not at all
interested and for Arpita as she had not yet found her Mr. Right she was not
bothered. Seema somehow had managed to
find someone from the senior group two weeks back. She had a sort of crush on that guy but had
never talked to him. This time she
thought this guy will do and she will have a try with him. I used to admire her for these crazy things
at times. She reflected me most of the
times but after Sid I had stopped all these things as I used to be quite busy
with him and I never really felt the need of finding anyone else.
Sid was always with some or
the other plans. Everytime we used to
chat I would found him new as if I am knowing him for the first time. He was adventurous, bold, dashing and not
like other guys who were over possessive about their girl friends even though
it was for time pass. These qualities
really attracted me towards him. The
main thing I like about him was his loyalty.
He used to share everything with me and when with me he never chased
other girls.
"Who's car is
this"?, I asked Sid seeing him waiting for me in the car. "One of my friend's
car. Just got it for this day. Now come inside, hop on". "So, where are u taking
me"? "Friend's
apartment. No one is there. So I asked him if I could use it for
today". "And what we will be
doing there"? "Anything you want to
baby", he winked at me.
I trusted him. I was dating him for almost two years
now. He was not going to do anything
with which I was not comfortable. We
reached his friend's place. As he had
said, no one was there. I was getting
hungry as I didn't had anything for lunch.
Sid had said we will be having lunch together.
"Nice place. I am hungry now Sid. Lets order or get something". "No need for that. We will be cooking together today". "What!!! Are you
serious"? "Of course, I love
cooking and so do you. So lets do it
together. We can't find a better option
than this. I have done all the shopping
for cooking". "You are too good
Sid. I love you for this". "So first lets start
with something sweet". "But sweet is always at
the end right". "You know which sweet I
am asking for Sara", he winked again and I got what he meant. "Here is your
sweet", and I kissed him on his lips and we started off with our cooking.
We had our lunch and it was
very yummy. I had cooked fish and Sid
prepared chicken dishes. He was indeed a
good cook. It was one of the best memory
I could have had. We were having our drinks
post lunch. Sid was playing with my
hair. He then lied down putting his head
on my lap. He always liked doing that. I could sense something was going to
happen. He then bent me towards him and
kissed my lips. I also kissed him back. He then carried me in his arms and took me to
the bedroom. I was lying there and he
came next to me. We kissed passionately
the way we had never done before. He
then slowly moved towards my neck and kissed me. He then undressed me and without my knowledge
I removed his shirt. We hugged each
other. I pulled him towards me in a way
I never want him to leave me. He was
exploring my body and I didn't stop him.
My mind was telling me I was not ready for this but my heart overtook my
mind and thus awakened the deep desire inside me which I never thought
existed. We were passionately involved
with each other. We made love for the
first time. It was not new to him but it was a whole new experience to me. I had tears in my eyes while making love but
it was something which came out of affection.
That day something inside me
changed forever. My thoughts and beliefs
about a relationship had found a new meaning.
I was not the same anymore. I had
come out as a new person.
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"You again missed first
two classes today Sara. What's the
matter with you"? Arpita was asking me. "I think she don't feel
like coming to college without Sid around now", teased Seema. "This is your final year
Sara, you should get bit serious now", advised Pavan. "If not for lessons come
at least for attendance Sara", said Nishanth.
They all were talking to me
but I was not at all in mood to listen to them.
Second year had gone quite quickly.
I was in final year now. After
that day with Sid, though I could make out some changes within me I didn't
really share it with Sid. He didn't
discuss anything and I didn't feel like talking about that as I didn't wanted
to stress him as it was his last year.
What would I have talked to
him when I myself was not sure what was happening to me. I could realise that I had changed completely
but didn't know was it a good sign or bad.
I couldn't discuss this with anyone, not even with Arpita as I was not
sure anyone would be able to understand.
After exams Sid left for his
hometown. After the results he left for
"Are you missing him
very badly"? Arpita asked me when we were sitting together at my place in
my room. "Don't know, I don't
think so". "You both love each
other right, I mean you both are still together"? "I need to tell you
something Arpu but promise me you will not be mad at me". "What's it"? "Sid and I never really
had serious relationship. It was just a
passing affair". "What!!! You mean to say
he was not serious about you"? "Not only him Arpu, we
had a mutual understanding on this. We
both never wanted serious thing. It was
decided on our very first date". "And you didn't feel
like telling me this, right"? "I knew you would not
like these things Arpu but I had a nice time with him. He is somewhat different". "So now there is nothing
between you both"? "We are still friends
but yes we are not a couple anymore". "But I don't think you
have moved on. You have changed
Sara. I could make out how badly you
miss him. You are not interested in
partying anymore. You don't feel like
hanging out with us. You don't attend
classes regularly. You seem to be lost
in your own thoughts. Don't you think
this has some meaning"? "What do you want to say
that I am going crazy over him. I do
miss the moments spent with him but its not that I am thinking only about
him". "You are Sara, you don't
want to accept this fact and I don't know why but yes you are in love with
him".
Love, I love him? No its not
possible. I never really had any such
feelings for him when we were together.
How could I then be suddenly in love with him. Arpita was just imagining things. I didn't believe in love and all, not at
least when we were only 19yrs old. We
were not mature enough even to understand these feelings let alone handling
them. I had to prove Arpita and all my
friends wrong who thought I was missing Sid very badly.
Seema had invited all of us
to her place for house party as it was her birthday. She never liked surprises and always wanted
to celebrate her birthday in her own way by throwing party. I had second thoughts about going to the
party but then I decided to go or else they all would think I am really going
crazy over Sid.
"What time is the party
Sara"? asked my Mom. "At 7, Mom. Don't wait for me, I will be late". "How will you come back
then. Dad is also out of town. You better take Suraj with you". "I am not going to any
boring party Mom, instead I can pick her up later", said Suraj who hated
these parties. He was bit opposite to
me. "No need Mom, I will be
fine. I will ask Nishu or Pavan to drop
me. Arpu will also be there with
me". "She has so many people
Mom, don't worry. I have some
assignments as well to complete", said Suraj. "But Sara, you know I
don't like these late night parties of yours". "But its Seema's
birthday and we are not going anywhere out.
It's at her home. Don't you
worry", and I was gone.
Seema's birthday party went
very well. As it was at home we couldn't
have drinks but we enjoyed like hell.
There was a guy at Seema's place whom she introduced as her cousin who
will be staying with them for sometime.
He was in his mid 20s and had come to help her Dad with his business and
also to learn some business tactics. His
name was
I called him after two or
three days after the party and he was very pleased as he had not thought I
would ever call him. I made him very
clear that I am not into any serious business and would be interested only in
being friends. He was ok with that and
he too also wanted some fun so that his stay in this new place would get
enjoyable. He was from
My calls to Sid frequently
became less. Not that I didn't miss him,
I did but then he also used to stay very busy with his job and MBA. I didn't wanted to disturb him. We were in touch through messages here and
there. I also started to see
"These pictures are very
cool Sara. Didn't know you are a good
photographer", said Nishanth looking at the pictures I had clicked few
days back. "Where did I know. Dad got a new camera about 2 weeks back. I just tried clicking some. Are they really nice". "Of course they are
beautiful Sara. You must take it
seriously", said Seema. "Indeed they are very
nice. You can become a
photographer", said Pavan. "My childhood friend is
so good at taking pictures and I never knew", said Arpita. "Oh come on you guys, I
never had any passion for photography". "But you can make this
your career Sara. You were unsure about
what you will be doing after college right? Well now you have an option",
said Nishanth. "Hmm, but again I have
to do some extra course for this right". "I have a friend in "Oh that would be
wonderful Nishu, at least then I can know what to do with my life". "Sara if you become
photographer, you can probably click my wedding pictures babes", said
Seema. "Still six months to
finish our college and you are already planning your wedding", said
Arpita. "Of course. I will not be studying any further. I have already asked my parents to search for
a good looking, well settled boy".
We all had a nice laugh on that.
And that's how I found my
passion for photography. I had no idea
before that. I loved clicking pictures
with my cousin's camera but I never thought about it seriously. We didn't had any camera and whenever we
wanted to take some pictures of our family we used to go to the studio and
during any functions we used to hire some photographer. But after all my friends suggested I should
make a career out of it I gave it a serious thought. When Nishanth said he has a friend in
In these many months I hardly
had a chat with Sid over phone. He also
never came to Mangalore. We used to
message though. I was also getting bored
with
Arpita could sometimes make out
my frustration over Sid's name or anything related to him. She tried explaining to me that I should stop
running away from this fact but I never listened to her. I was not sure about these feelings inspite
of the fact that I was developing some feelings. I didn't wanted to give any name for
that. I liked the way I was and didn't
really wanted to become some love struck person who would waste her time
thinking about something which I don't believe in.
"You mean to say he will
train me and also pay me"?, I was asking Nishanth in surprise at his home after
he got information about photography from his friend. "Yes but you have to
work with him for sometime, say a bond of six months or so", said
Nishanth. "Thats cool man. I don't have any problem with that if your
training will be free of cost". "Yes, he is my good
friend and very helpful also". "Thanks Nishu. I will talk about this with my parents today
itself. Hopefully my Mom will agree to
this. I know Dad will be fine". "Your Mom don't like you
going anywhere. Why is she so
strict"? "Its not that
Nishu. She is little scared for me. You know everyday we hear some or the other
news about girls being kidnapped or raped.
She just gets worried". "I know but where will
you stay in "I have lot of cousins
and relatives there. Will see where my
parents will fix me", I giggled. "So how's it going with
Ravi., any progress"? "Ok its going on. We have been seeing each other for sometime
now. Nothing interesting man. Anyhow he will be going back soon". "Oh is it, what will you
do then"? "Focus on my career
Nishu, now come on I am not at all interested in him. He is nothing like Si............", I
stopped myself before I could say anything more. "You still miss him
right"?, Nishanth got that. "Nothing like that
Nishu". "You do Sara, you are
not able to make out but we can. We see
that you miss him".
Other than me everyone else could
see I missed Sid. There was no doubt I
missed him. I missed all the crazy
things we did together. To be more
specific I missed his touch which used to make me feel so special. But this didn't mean that I love him. No I don't.
"So you really want to proceed
in photography Sara"?, asked my Dad. "Yes Dad and that guy is
Nishu's friend. He will train me and pay
me as well. It would be a great
opportunity for me Dad". "What do you say
Savitha"? my Dad asked my Mom. "If she is so much
interested then I don't mind and we have many relatives in "Oh my god, you agreed
pretty quickly Mom. I love you", I
had not imagined it would be that easy to convince my Mom. "But Sis with whom you
will stay"?, asked my brother. "She can stay with Anu
aunty. Anyhow her son and his family
live in "But Savita you better
ask her first", said my Dad. "Don't worry Satish, she
would be very happy to have Sara. But
still I will talk to her tonight". "So when will you be
going Sis". "After my exams in
April. Its only Feb now". "You don't have to wait
till your results"? asked my Mom. "No Mom, Nishu said I
can join him as soon as I finish my exams.
Results don't matter to him".
It was again Valentine's
day. Memories from last valentine came
back to me. I messaged Sid saying
"happy valentine's day" and he had replied back as "same to you,
but this time not together". I so
badly wanted to call him but then again what would I have said to him that I
missed being in his arms. Why was this
happening to me. Why I wanted to see
him. I couldn't find any answers to
these.
I had slowly started to
realise my mind is getting out of my control.
Was Arpita right about how I was feeling. Have I really fallen for Sid?
"Hey get in", said "You are late", I
didn't really like waiting. "I know, I am
sorry. Got stuck between some
work". "But you said you will
be free today". "Ya last minute work you
see. Tomorrow I will be gone and had to
fix few things". "Hmm never mind. What time you are leaving tomorrow"? "I have a flight at "Hmm, so which movie are
we going"? "Not sure, lets see
what's going on. If you want to go
anywhere else its fine". "Lets go to the beach
directly. Anyhow movie and beach will
make me late". "Ok sure, I will take to
beach then".
He then gave me some gift
box. As I opened it, I was shocked to
see a golden ear rings in that. "Oh my gosh, I can't
take this expensive gift". "Its not that
expensive. Please don't say no. Its specially for you". "But still, its gold
right. I mean I am not your girl friend
or......". "I know but I like
pampering girls. You are one of the
beautiful girl who gave me such a good company here". "But seriously "Ok no issues. I will give some other gift which you don't
need to explain to anyone".
After coming back from beach,
I changed quickly, didn't talk to anyone and straight away went to Arpita's
home. I was very upset and wanted to
talk to her very badly. As soon I went
to her place she took me to her room. I
hugged her and started crying like never before. I had never cried like this in my whole
life. She tried to console me and was
asking for the reason but I was not able to stop my tears. "Calm down Sara, please
tell me what happened". "Arpu.. Arpu, you know I
had went with "Ya, you had told me". "He...he...he tried
to...", I was still not able to control my tears. "Just say it Sara",
Arpita was getting impatient. "He tried to get close
with me. He tried to kiss me and I
didn't like it". "What!!! Its only
that. I mean he tries to kiss you and
you are so.... When did you start to get
uncomfortable with these things"? "Arpu, what do you
mean"? "You have kissed many
boys in the past and you had also kissed Sid.
So what's the big deal in this". "But Arpu, in past and
all it was only for fun and with Sid it was different". "What was so different
with Sid, Sara. As far as I know, you
would have never tried to stop Sid". "Ya but....
but...." I was not able to say what I wanted to. "What happened Sara,
couldn't find the words. Shall I tell
you why it was different with Sid, because you love him and that's the reason
you can't bear anyone else touching you.
At least accept this fact now dear".
Yes I was in love. I finally had to accept this. I loved Sid.
That's the reason I always felt special with him. That's the reason I used to feel jealous
whenever he used to talk with any other girl.
That's the reason I missed him.
That's the reason I didn't stop him on our last valentine's day. Yes I was crazily in love with him. There was no running away from this fact
now. Arpita was right I had fallen for
him. He was my Mr. Right. Now when he had touched me, I didn't wanted
anyone else to touch me or get close with me.
But I wondered did Sid also
loved me. How could I tell this to
him. He had never tried to call me. He was a playboy and he had accepted this
fact very early. I decided I would let
him know my changed feelings for him once I finish my exams and go to
Yes I was madly in love with
the most craziest person I could ever find.
It was this love which kept me attached to him even after we
departed. I just couldn't wait to go to
----------------------------------
"Hey Sara, come in. Just give me 2 min", said Anurag,
Nishanth's photographer friend. "Ok sure".
After my exams I had come to
I always loved this place and
like my other friends I also wanted to explore this place. I had still not contacted Sid. I first wanted to sort out all the issues
related with my training and work.
"Hey, sorry for keep you
waiting. So how are you"? asked
Anurag. "I am good. All excited to step into new field". "That's great you are
looking forward for this. As discussed
earlier I will train you and also give you few assignments".
Anurag explained me very
clearly about training and job. Arpita
was doing her MBA in
Initial few days were tough
for me in
I started to enjoy my
work. Anurag was very good at his
job. He was a great photographer. He used to do lot of photo shoots and I
started to assist him. I soon got to
learn many things about photography. He
was very impressed with my progress. He
was a middle age guy with average looks.
He got separated from his wife after his 3 years of marriage. He had one daughter who lived with his wife. He was fun loving guy and I had never seen
him depressed or losing his temper. He
was very cool headed guy even when his employees did some thing wrong. He was a great guy to work with and a great
tutor as well.
"I don't believe you are
here from past five months and we are meeting only now", Sid said sitting
in a coffee day. "I know. I first thought of calling you the day I
arrived but then I thought I will first settle well with my job and all". "Ya and then when you
called I was out of town, busy with my schedule blah blah. But anyways finally we are here". "Yes, so how's your job
and I guess you are doing your MBA as well right"? "Yes babes, MBA is going
on. Not sure if I would complete it
because of this hectic job you see". "Hmm, you must be well
settled here now. You like the
place"? "Very much. All my friends are here. We have weekend parties, road trips and so
many beautiful chicks also you see", he winked at me. "Oh, so you are still
the same huh"? "Of course, how could I
change. You know me very well". "Any girl friends"? "If you mean by passing
affairs, yes many". "Nothing serious
yet"? "Serious!! and me, come
on Sara you should not be asking this. I
can't get committed to any one girl. Its
impossible". "And what if someone you
know and with whom you had been involved loves you truly"? "I would say very
politely that love is not my cup of tea as I am a playboy".
I got very depressed after I
met Sid. I couldn't tell him what I
wanted to do. He was still the same and
it was not his fault. He had not done
anything wrong with me. It was I who had
changed completely. I slowly started to
keep myself away from him. I got
involved in my work more and more.
Anurag started to assign me more work seeing my enthusiasm. He also started to take me on outdoor shoots
which I enjoyed a lot.
Sid used to call me now and
then and invite me on his weekend parties.
I tried to avoid him but he somehow used to convince me to go with
him. He also used to take me on his road
trips. I used to enjoy them but it was
such a pain to see him flirt with other girls as well. A guy who I love so deeply flirts with other
girls and I used to feel so helpless. Unable
to confess my love for him was killing me from inside.
I had completed one full year
in
I used to miss my parents,
brother and friends a lot. In this one
year I had went only twice or thrice to Mangalore to see them. I used to talk to them over the phone
regularly. My friends were also busy
with their own things.
"What!!! When did this
happen? You never gave me a hint", I was asking excitedly over the phone
to Arpita who got engaged. "I myself didn't know
about it. It was all arranged. He is into IT and lives in "Arranged? But Arpu you
always wanted to have love marriage right"? "Ya but what to do if I
couldn't find one. Moreover Sandeep is a
nice guy and very handsome as well. He
is the only son to his parents who live here in Mangalore itself. His father is a very good friend of my
papa". "But Arpu....." "Don't worry Sara, I am
very happy and you are the first one to know.
Engagement was a small ceremony with only his and my parents and a few
relatives. Nothing on large scale". "Hmm, if you are happy
then nothing matters. So when is the
marriage". "After six months. I would be done with my MBA also by then. Marriage is in Mangalore only and you will be
coming". "Oh do I need your
invitation? Of course I would be coming.
How could I miss your wedding"? "Sara, why didn't you
tell anything to Sid"? "Forget it Arpu, its no
use. Let's not talk about it now". "But you should
have. Anyways I would be coming to "Anytime dear and hey
you would be introducing your fiance".
I was very happy for Arpita
as she was very much excited about her wedding.
Arpita had never been in any relationship though she had many boys who
were crazy for her. Some seriously and
some only for fun. I always used to tell
her just to have some fun. But now I feel
its good that she didn't had any fun.
What if she had ended in the same situation like me.
With each passing day it was
getting impossible for me to forget Sid.
He used to invite me to all his friend's parties though I was not at all
interested. He just used to say "you
are my best companion, its good to have you around". I had to try a lot to be the old Sara he knew
who used to enjoy these parties like anything.
He didn't knew that I was the changed Sara who just wanted to be with
him, who was craving for his love, who was so emotionally attached to him. I couldn't reveal all these things to
him. I didn't wanted to depress him with
all my feelings when he considered me as his best friend. He still used to touch me the same way. We still used to hug, kiss but the difference
was initially it was only for fun and now it was out of love from my side.
I had passed many nights
crying for him. I wanted to tell all my
feelings and the way I felt for him. I
wanted to share my pain with Arpita but then she was busy with her wedding
plans and her fiance. I didn't wanted to
disturb her with all my mess. I had
never imagined loving someone and not able to have them could give you such a
pain. I just wanted to scream at top of
my voice and say " I LOVE YOU SID, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH".
"Hey Anurag, you wanted to
talk to me", I said as I entered his cabin. "Yes Sara, please have a
seat". "Yep, tell me what's the
matter". "Well Sara, you came
here without any experience but in these one and a half years you have excelled
very much in your work". "Thanks Anurag, its all
because of you". "No no, its all your
hard work. I have some news for
you". "What news, hope its not
bad. You are not firing me right",
I asked with a laugh. "Well not really but I
have some very good chance for you". "And what's that". "I have a friend in "And......" "And he wants to hire
you. All the paper work, documentation
will be taken care of. You will also be
provided with accommodation until you find your own place. Salary package is also very good. Its a nice opportunity for you". "But "You are a brave girl
Sara and you very well adjust to new places.
"Give me some time to
think about it Anurag. I have to consult
my family as well".
I had never imagined I would
be getting some offer like this.
"Oh look at you, you are
all glowing", I said to Arpita who had come to "Shut up Sara, nothing like
that. You are just imagining
things". "Hehe, but really you
are looking more beautiful". "Hmm anyways, how's your
work life going"? "Very well. I have got one new offer also". "What's that"? "Will tell you but first
you freshen up. I have few assignments. I will finish that and come and then in
evening we could go for shopping". "Ok but don't hurry
yourself". "Not a problem. And hey you will be introducing your fiance
as well". "Sure I will give him a
call and see if he is free for dinner tonight".
I finished my work and later
we went for shopping. Sandeep came for
dinner and he was indeed a very nice guy and a perfect match for Arpita. All these years of wait for her Mr. Right
didn't go waste.
"So what have you
thought about it"?, Arpita asked after I told her about "I want to take
it". "Will your parents be ok
with it, I mean its a big decision Sara". "I know Arpu but I just
want to run away from here. This seems a
perfect opportunity for me". "Running away from Sid
also means parting from your family as well Sara". "I know Arpu but I don't
have any other option. I have to somehow
convince Mom and Dad". "Instead why don't you
just say it to him". "I can't and I don't
want also. He doesn't believe in love
and all Arpu and I want him to get these feelings on his own like how I
got". "Which was the moment
you felt you have lost to him Sara, I mean what made you change something in
you"?
I couldn't have held the
truth anymore from Arpita. I told her
everything that happened between me and Sid on that valentine's day which
changed me completely. I felt so
relieved after sharing this with Arpita.
I couldn't hold back my tears and I cried and cried like a baby hugging
her. She tried to console me but then
she let me cry and lessen the burden that I had carried all the way along
alone.
Thank god for you have some
friends on whom you could always rely upon no matter what. They are always there to understand you and I
was so wrong about Arpita that she could not have understood my situation.
"Thank god for Arpita's
wedding. You came at least", said
my Mom who was seeing me after quite a long time. "But Sis, there is still
one month for the wedding. How come you came so early", asked Suraj. "Suraj, enough. I am happy that she came and you are asking
the reason. This is her house, she can
come anytime", said my Mom. "Yes of course, so Sara
how's your job there now, enjoying"?, asked my Dad. "Yes Dad, all good. I love my work. Anurag, my manager is also very happy with my
progress". "That's very good. Anyways you freshen up and take rest. I will see you in the evening", said my
Dad and left for this work.
My parents and my brother
thought I came early because of Arpita's wedding but the actual fact was to
convince them for my
I couldn't have told them
everything. I knew I was my selfishness but
I was helpless. I had never planned for
any overseas relocation but when I got that offer it was the best option for
me. I thought may be this is what lies
in my destiny. May be Sid was only a
dream which could never be reality.
"What are you saying "You never discussed
anything about this though Sara", said my Dad. "I know Dad, but Mom I
was not sure at first when I got this offer.
So I didn't tell anything". "Cool Sis, "Suraj, its not a
joke. Totally new country and we don't
know also anyone there. How are you
going to manage there"?, asked my Mom. "There is nothing to
worry about Mom. They are giving me
accommodation and I know I will be fine.
It is very good for my career". "But Sara, in "Yes Dad but you don't
get such offers daily. They are very
happy with my work and I really want to go.
Please don't say no, please".
With lot of pleading and
convincing they finally gave in. My Mom
was still not very happy about me going to
Arpita's wedding was around
the corner and I was leaving for
"Hey, when did you come
back and you said you want to say something"?, asked Sid whom I had called
to meet me. "I came just two days
back. I have some news for you". "Don't tell me even you
are getting married", he teased me. "Why, shouldn't I"? "Well, I can't comment
on that but I don't think you would so soon". "Oh, anyways don't worry
I am not getting married". "Then good, I mean, then
what's the news", he just cut the sentence in between. "I got a nice offer in "What!! when did this
happen? You never said anything about it.
You are flying this Saturday and you are telling me now when everything
is set", he got bit irritated with this but was trying hard to cover it. "Sid I was not sure
about it and I thought I will let you know only when everything is final". "Oh, ok. Have a nice future", I could make out
the disappointment on his face. "You are angry with
me" ? "No why would I be. You never gave me that right". "Sid, you know me very
well. I would not tell anything unless I
mean it right. This was also the
same". "But why do you want to
go away Sara"? "I have a better future
there Sid". "Won't you miss anything
here"? "I will but I don't have
any option, you will not understand. Can
you meet me on Friday? I will come to your place".
My parents, brother and my
friends came to
"But Sara, why do you
want to meet him"? asked Arpita. "Because I am not sure
if I would ever see him again". "Then what's the use of
meeting him". "So that I can take the
last bit of memories of him with me". "Just say to him Sara,
who knows it might change something". "No Arpu, I know it will
not change anything. I don't want him to
think that I am going because of him. He should not feel guilty". "But Sara......" "Love should come from
within Arpu, you can't make any person to love you". "I still regret the day
when I said that one day you will truly fall for someone. You were good before, can't imagine this love
took you this far". "I guess one who always
runs away from love and commitments are the ones who fall so deeply". "I still insist you
should tell him".
It was too late for me to
confess my love to Sid. I knew he
doesn't have any such feelings for me then why would I make him think about
these things. He was happy in his life
and I didn't wanted to create any complications for him. I didn't wanted to be so selfish and make him
realise the pain I was going through.
"Come in Sara, was
waiting for you only", said Sid once he saw me at his place. "Thanks Sid for taking a
day off today for my sake". "Don't know when I will
be able to see you again. The least I
could do was to take a day off and spend some quality time with you". "Actually my family and
friends have come over. So I couldn't
have met you in the evening". "I understand. So what will you have for drinks". "I am fine with
anything". "Hmm, I was thinking
that if we can cook together today". "Actually I was thinking
the same, don't know if we would get this opportunity again". "Ya, lets just relive
those memories again. What say". "True. So what we will be cooking"? "Anything of your
choice. After all its your farewell
today". "I am good at cooking
fish". "How could I forget
that. Your fish curry is finger
licking. Let's get started then". "Cool but before that a
glass of wine please". "Sure why not. What time is your flight tomorrow"? "Its at mid night. We will be leaving around "Ok, you have anyone
there to receive you"? "Yes, Anurag said that
they will be sending someone to pick me up". "So, new lifestyle over
there huh? Don't get involved with any American guy". "Hehe, I am going there
for work and more over these things don't interest me anymore".
We were done with our lunch
and were watching a movie. "Hey Sara, do you mind
if we.....you know....", he came close to me and was finding hard to
complete his sentence. But I got to know
what he meant. "I don't mind Sid and
anyhow this will be the last time". "Won't you ever come
back"? "Who knows if you would
still be single by the time I come back".
He kissed me, the same way he
had three years back on that valentine's day.
But this time I kissed him more passionately than ever before. I got very wild with him letting away all my emotions
and desires. I hugged him, pulled him
towards me like there was no tomorrow. I
had missed him so much in these three years.
I had missed being with him so passionately. He responded to my touches and kisses more
intensely than ever before. We made love
many times that day.
We both were exhausted that
Sid slept for sometime. I was sitting
beside him watching him and wondering if I could ever make him mine. He was there sleeping without any knowledge
about my feelings and I watching him with full of tears in my eyes. I felt like waking him up and saying "do
you know how much I love you" but then I controlled myself. I went for a shower, dressed myself and left
from there without saying a word. But I
left a small note for him saying, "you were sleeping like a baby, so
didn't feel like disturbing you. Have a
great future Sid and always be happy".
"Take care Sara, do keep
in touch. We all will really miss
you", said Nishanth at airport. "Yes Sara, we really
do", said Seema and Pavan. "Hope you leave behind
everything and start a new life over there my dear", whispered Arpita in
my ears hugging me. "Even I will miss you
all, will surely keep in touch and Seema hope you find your perfect match
soon. All the best for all of you for
your future. Arpu have a great life and
hope to hear a good news soon". "Sara, call as soon as
you land there and be careful about everything.
Don't talk to any strangers and........", my Mom was advising me
like I was just staring my school. I
could feel her anxiety. She had full
tears in her eyes. "Come on Mom, she is a
big girl now. She will be fine",
said Suraj. "Yes Savita, don't
worry. Do take care my child and call
daily or else your Mom will go mad", said my Dad who was trying hard to
control his tears. "Of course Dad and Mom,
will truly miss you all. Suraj you
better take care of them. Will miss you
bro".
I bid all of them final good
bye and proceeded for my departure with heart full of pain and eyes full of
tears which I tried hard control in front of them. I had never thought I would be seeing this
day as well where I will be parting from all my dear ones without whom I had
ever imagined my life. My commitment to
someone changed the entire phase of my life.
Love could sometimes overpower everything.
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