Why Can't I Say?

A phrase to say

Or maybe to shout

I dont quite know

How to go about

Saying such simple

Words to you

When my heart beats fast

Because it's true

I lose my breath

I cannot think

All I can feel

In every blink

Of your lid,

Hiding your eyes

But I see through

Their pale disguise

I've always been horrid

At feeling what I say

Or is it saying what I feel?
Is feeling okay?

See, I've been alone

I've been so numb

You've shocked my senses

My brain's gone dumb

It's just not used

To someone like you

Peering into me

Brown gaze into blue

Green and yellow

I can feel bursting

Though gray hovers near:

For coldness it's thirsting.
I think I've lost it

Finally gone insane

I'm personifying colors

Giving them pain

For f**k's sake

Why can't I say it?

Speak what I mean!

Not just spray it

Onto concrete

And into doors

Carve into walls

And onto the floors

Thats how strongly

How powerfully I fear

But I am so strong

When you are near

My dear, it's too soon

For me to say-

But it can't be too soon

If I feel this way!
I'm just afraid

You'll be like the rest

Take me for granted

While I feel blessed

But in my heart,

I know this fear's for naught

You've cheated before me...
And been caught

You've learned that lesson
I know for a fact

And now you've gained

what before you lacked

I feel it in my bones

I know it's true....

So why can't I say

"I love you"?

Reviews

[That_Girl]

Aww this was so sweet. That hidden conflict that everyone goes through... well spoken!