Zodiac

I lay out beneath my love,

shimmering in the darkness

of it all. The hour is late

and the time has passed for this longing

to still exist but

here I am and there you are in

all your glory, twinkling;

obliviously unaware of the amazement only you

can put on your face. Something

about you

is always on my mind and

I can't decide

if that's good or not because the

vastness of your touch

reminds me, you can't be mine and, God,

how I wish I could hold you,

but

we both know my childlike grasp isn't big enough

to cover your

infinite possibilities.

But my hand reaches out in a 

futile attempt

to prove myself wrong,

only to really feel the distance that

someone more powerful

than either of us designed

to test either

my determination to land

amongst your glowing stars or your

unbelievable potential; 

that which not even you can see 

but my endless wonder

has known since the moment I first saw you.

Your existence calms me and

perplexes me

at the same time

and my heart and my brain can't decide

how to react to seeing you anymore;

whether I should revel in your beautiful

complexities or 

ponder your simple, wonderful mysteries

yet

I still choose to be as close

as space will allow

and that's still not close enough. Although

your brightness comes

and goes

in my life, I long

for your impossibly touch and to feel

the weight of the worlds you carry on your shoulders

much more than I know

I should.

Your golden gaze stares

down on me below

and fateful wishes can't help but escape my forlorn lips. 

It's a harsh reality

that you're never here to stay

and, I know, I'll eventually

have to leave too

and the sun is rising now--

our time used up once more;

you're slowly

drifting

out of my pathetic reach

and 

my heart is aching

for much more than my little infinity

with you.