Daddy

No one has ever seen me for who I really am

Everyone only sees what I show them nothing more

No one takes the time to get to know the real me

The only thing that matters to them is what they see

 

They only see a quiet, loving, and shy girl

They see a very smart girl who isn’t trying

A girl that is very athletic who loves to play sports

But no one looks close enough to know it’s all a lie

 

No one looks close enough at my eyes to see all the pain

I am that girl that no one will ever really understand

There are tears that sit in my eyes waiting to fall

That fake smile that is deceiving and false

 

That heart that no one will ever know how it feels

How it’s slowly fading into a hole of nothing

They will never understand the pain that’s inside me

They’ll never know if it’s really gone or not

 

I am still that very shy and scared little girl

One that’s falling apart with each passing day

The heart that was once whole is still breaking

The girl didn’t always holds tears hold them now

 

The walls that were there then are even stronger now

That girl that was once strong is weaker now

That girl that was always abandoned is still alone

The loneliness I once felt is stronger than ever

 

I am that girl that will never have her daddy

The ones who’s daddy never wanted her born

He will never want me and I don’t know why

What did I do to make him hate me so much

 

He’ll never be there to protect or watch over me

I’m the girl who is growing up all by herself

My daddy who made me then threw me away like trash

How did I become this burden to him

 

He ran away from me so fast like I was a disease

I hate myself for looking like him and being born

There’s a pain that runs from my head to my toes

It increase every second that I’m still here alive

 

My mind races around like a wild fire blazing

It breaks down all my walls and makes me feel the pain

The hardest thing is when it forces me to think about you

 

I’m slowly dying as I hold everything inside me

The more times I say I’m okay the bigger lie it becomes

I sit in my room culled in a ball thinking about you daddy

I can’t stop shaking no matter how hard I try

Until that day comes when there is no more pain

Reviews

[Sweets]

Sorry about your father, I know how it feels to be lonely =/
Good luck in your life

[deeps]

This is so heart breaking! I am so sorry about your dad.

Your poem has captivated me young one. I'm sorry about your father. Tis a shame that he left, you are a bright young lady and I know that you shall make a big imprint in the world. Please don't let this get you down. There is life out there beyond him. I'm not saying forget, but to not dwell on him. That will make the pain worse. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can add me as a friend and I will be here. You take care Kellz.

WolfMaiden

[Jonathan De Elvira]

This is such sad confession. I really felt it with this one.
It's not an easy thing to write especially this kind of writings.
You put alot of emotions with this and truly I feel a bit down myself after I've read it...Good job..It's emotionally done...

[Immortal1967]

A very hard thing to go through...great use of prose to pour your emotions out and bleed some of the pain out on paper

[Closed Account]

This is really sad. I know what it's like to be without a dad (well, sort of at least)
This is a great poem. Sorry about your dad :(

[al25]

You've got a typo in your second verse. You mean to say 'is' instead of 'it'. This is my favourite poem by you. Its amazing how real it is. I'm sorry that you have to go through this. I wish there was something I could do for you.

[Yours Truly]

Sorry about your father.
You've captured your sadness in this poem.
I hope you the best in life.